I can learn;
It's one of the few things I can do.
I just needed someone to be patient,
Sadly it's not you.
Monday, October 20, 2014
Tuesday, October 14, 2014
Step
Once I thought I fell in love
'Cause I was happy to see her smile
Happy to see her, even just to hear her
But suddenly, I realized
This is not love.
For to love a woman is to step into a world
Not your own, nor hers alone
Ever to be here, ever to be there
Even in hell for an unlikely pair
I fell in love, not with her,
But with the happiness that she brought
A happiness fleeting, like a shadow passing
Now gone forever. And so I thought
This is not love.
For to love a woman is to step into her world
To leave your own, never to return
Ever to remain, ever to share
Her tears and pain in a life unfair
This is love.
To love a woman is to step into her world
To abandon heaven and live on earth
To give your life in exchange for hers
And spend eternal life together
To love at all is to jump across
The chasm of worry and fear of loss
To leave the past and consider it gone
To step into a world of two souls made one
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"This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins."
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Thanks Ira for helping me with the final touch
'Cause I was happy to see her smile
Happy to see her, even just to hear her
But suddenly, I realized
This is not love.
For to love a woman is to step into a world
Not your own, nor hers alone
Ever to be here, ever to be there
Even in hell for an unlikely pair
I fell in love, not with her,
But with the happiness that she brought
A happiness fleeting, like a shadow passing
Now gone forever. And so I thought
This is not love.
For to love a woman is to step into her world
To leave your own, never to return
Ever to remain, ever to share
Her tears and pain in a life unfair
This is love.
To love a woman is to step into her world
To abandon heaven and live on earth
To give your life in exchange for hers
And spend eternal life together
To love at all is to jump across
The chasm of worry and fear of loss
To leave the past and consider it gone
To step into a world of two souls made one
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"This is love: not that we loved God, but that he loved us and sent his Son as an atoning sacrifice for our sins."
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Thanks Ira for helping me with the final touch
Milankovitch
As the earth tilts its axis
Do tides know they're changing
The curves of the shoreline?
That the curves of smiles and frowns
Change with every crash
Of the tears on my cheek
When I think of the past.
As the earth wobbles slowly
Does the wind know it's different,
That it's no longer the same breeze?
That when I stand by this beach
It's no longer your scent
That blows on my face
Whenever I breathe.
It might take forever,
But little by little,
The world is changing.
I am missing you less
As the earth changes its circle
Around its only sun
It'll be a little bit hotter
Or maybe a little bit colder
Now that it's a solitary beach
It's no longer the same,
And I'm no longer the same.
As the earth spins, uncaring
Do mountains know they crumble?
Do continents know they move?
Do seasons know they're changing,
Along with my love for you?
It might take forever,
But little by litttle,
My world is changing.
And I am missing you less.
Do tides know they're changing
The curves of the shoreline?
That the curves of smiles and frowns
Change with every crash
Of the tears on my cheek
When I think of the past.
As the earth wobbles slowly
Does the wind know it's different,
That it's no longer the same breeze?
That when I stand by this beach
It's no longer your scent
That blows on my face
Whenever I breathe.
It might take forever,
But little by little,
The world is changing.
I am missing you less
As the earth changes its circle
Around its only sun
It'll be a little bit hotter
Or maybe a little bit colder
Now that it's a solitary beach
It's no longer the same,
And I'm no longer the same.
As the earth spins, uncaring
Do mountains know they crumble?
Do continents know they move?
Do seasons know they're changing,
Along with my love for you?
It might take forever,
But little by litttle,
My world is changing.
And I am missing you less.
Tuesday, October 7, 2014
October 4 2014 Tuesday
Today I'm really pissed. Part of it is carried over from yesterday. My mother was being extremely annoying, getting real mad about every little thing. The moment I wake up she's scolding me for not wearing slippers, and then scolds me later for studying Spanish (duolingo), and then blames me at noon because the buckets in the bathroom weren't filled. Anyway, that was yesterday and I forgot most of it, but admittedly some of the mood still remained until today.
So today I went to L's house and I wasted four hours of my life there. She just disregarded everything I said and everything I did. She is obviously wrong but she never admits it. Not to mention that she knew I don't eat pork but did not give an alternative. Good thing I thought of it in advanced. God give me patience.
So today I went to L's house and I wasted four hours of my life there. She just disregarded everything I said and everything I did. She is obviously wrong but she never admits it. Not to mention that she knew I don't eat pork but did not give an alternative. Good thing I thought of it in advanced. God give me patience.
Tuesday, September 30, 2014
The Proof of God - Science and Faith
I heard you’re looking for this. I will not prove the existence of an Infinite Being in general; I find it quite useless to individually prove the attributes of an indivisible God. I will only prove the existence of the God that I know. But I can only tell you what I know; it takes God to know God.
First, a disclaimer: if you’re looking for a cold, hard, scientific proof then you’re not gonna find any. You have to realize that modern science possesses this assumption akin to uniformitarianism (which you probably encountered in geology), called naturalism. It’s basically this: everything happens naturally. Whether yesterday, today, or tomorrow – ‘everything goes on as it has since the beginning of creation,’ as the apostle Peter would have said it (yes, the thought is so old that it was actually prophesied). Now I don’t completely disregard this point of view either; I think it is important to science, because science deals with natural phenomena. But I want to point out that the use of the word everything is presumptuous. You might say, “What’s wrong with that? No one has disproved it anyway.” Of course not, it’s a freaking postulate. The thing is, even if science can provide a completely coherent theory of everything (which is its ultimate goal), it is completely irrelevant to the existence of God. At its very core, science assumes that miracles don’t exist, and that God does not exist, or at least that the existence of either is irrelevant. Therefore science cannot prove that God exists, simply because it has assumed that He does not.
In close relation to this, God is not a natural phenomenon; He created nature and He’s not part of it. He is outside the scope of science. But you might say, “God is faithful. We should be able to observe that faithfulness.” Yes, but faithfulness does not mean predictability. Do you think that He who created the hosts of stars and millions of different creatures according to their kind is not creative enough to show His faithfulness in a thousand different ways, in a thousand different times, and a thousand different places? God is not nature; it declares His glory, but He is not there. And neither is He that random error you find in your data, so don’t bother looking for Him with statistics. God is not a natural phenomenon - God is a being with will, intellect, and emotions. Some people describe Him as a ‘person’; while not completely untrue, in view of the Trinity I find that statement severely lacking. It will, however, be good enough for our purposes.
With that in mind, how do you prove that a ‘person’ exists? For example, how do you prove that the writer of this essay exists? How do you prove that in fact, someone wrote this, and that this is not an excerpt from a string of randomly self-generated characters? Perhaps you could say that this string of spaces and letters has grammar, has a purpose, has logical flow, etc. etc. but that does not disprove the alternate explanation that this could be an excerpt from a string of randomly self-generated characters.
If you haven’t gotten the analogy, I’ll be explicit: the writer is God and the text is Nature. Now don’t overextend this analogy yet; I find many flaws in it too. But let us tweak the question a little in order to make it more relevant. We want to prove that the writer exists, let us first believe that He does not, and see if we arrive at a contradiction.
Case 1: It is easy to imagine that if the writer has no intention of showing himself, then it would be impossible to prove that he exists. Case 2: he wants to prove that he exists. How would he do that? Well, he could send us another letter saying “Hey, I’m real and this is what I’m like.” But we could easily brush that off as another excerpt from a string of characters. Then maybe he could find a mutual friend, go write a letter to him, or better yet call him and meet him in person, and get him to tell us that “Hey, I’m real and this is what I’m like.” But we could just as easily brush that off as a friend fooled by some impostor (remember, we assumed that the writer does not exist, and we want to see a contradiction). Then finally, as a last resort, the writer gives the ultimate proof and shows himself to you and says “Hey, I’m real and this is who I am.” But, we could still easily brush that man off as a fake. If we refuse to believe that then there is no more proof left.
Do you see it now? The problem with proving the existence of a ‘person’ is that you can’t.
And in this respect, Jesus Christ is the ultimate proof of God’s existence. Of course, for your question, “if God wanted to prove Himself, why doesn’t He just show some great miracle right here, right now?” The answer? He has. The Christ was asked the same question ages ago, and He plainly says, “None shall be given you except the sign [of the resurrection].” If we refuse to believe Him then there is no more proof left for us.
To believe is to see. Now you would say, “That’s stupid.” Yes, I completely agree. But that’s the way that God has chosen to reveal Himself.
“God chose the stupid things of the world to shame the wise, and the weak things of this world to shame the strong.”
“The message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.”
“Anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists. Anyone who comes to Him must believe that he rewards those who earnestly seek Him.”
I can go on, but I believe that these would suffice.
Of course, this conclusion inevitably brings us to the historicity of the gospels. Many have written about it, and many still are doing so. I think it would be best tackled some other time.
First, a disclaimer: if you’re looking for a cold, hard, scientific proof then you’re not gonna find any. You have to realize that modern science possesses this assumption akin to uniformitarianism (which you probably encountered in geology), called naturalism. It’s basically this: everything happens naturally. Whether yesterday, today, or tomorrow – ‘everything goes on as it has since the beginning of creation,’ as the apostle Peter would have said it (yes, the thought is so old that it was actually prophesied). Now I don’t completely disregard this point of view either; I think it is important to science, because science deals with natural phenomena. But I want to point out that the use of the word everything is presumptuous. You might say, “What’s wrong with that? No one has disproved it anyway.” Of course not, it’s a freaking postulate. The thing is, even if science can provide a completely coherent theory of everything (which is its ultimate goal), it is completely irrelevant to the existence of God. At its very core, science assumes that miracles don’t exist, and that God does not exist, or at least that the existence of either is irrelevant. Therefore science cannot prove that God exists, simply because it has assumed that He does not.
In close relation to this, God is not a natural phenomenon; He created nature and He’s not part of it. He is outside the scope of science. But you might say, “God is faithful. We should be able to observe that faithfulness.” Yes, but faithfulness does not mean predictability. Do you think that He who created the hosts of stars and millions of different creatures according to their kind is not creative enough to show His faithfulness in a thousand different ways, in a thousand different times, and a thousand different places? God is not nature; it declares His glory, but He is not there. And neither is He that random error you find in your data, so don’t bother looking for Him with statistics. God is not a natural phenomenon - God is a being with will, intellect, and emotions. Some people describe Him as a ‘person’; while not completely untrue, in view of the Trinity I find that statement severely lacking. It will, however, be good enough for our purposes.
With that in mind, how do you prove that a ‘person’ exists? For example, how do you prove that the writer of this essay exists? How do you prove that in fact, someone wrote this, and that this is not an excerpt from a string of randomly self-generated characters? Perhaps you could say that this string of spaces and letters has grammar, has a purpose, has logical flow, etc. etc. but that does not disprove the alternate explanation that this could be an excerpt from a string of randomly self-generated characters.
If you haven’t gotten the analogy, I’ll be explicit: the writer is God and the text is Nature. Now don’t overextend this analogy yet; I find many flaws in it too. But let us tweak the question a little in order to make it more relevant. We want to prove that the writer exists, let us first believe that He does not, and see if we arrive at a contradiction.
Case 1: It is easy to imagine that if the writer has no intention of showing himself, then it would be impossible to prove that he exists. Case 2: he wants to prove that he exists. How would he do that? Well, he could send us another letter saying “Hey, I’m real and this is what I’m like.” But we could easily brush that off as another excerpt from a string of characters. Then maybe he could find a mutual friend, go write a letter to him, or better yet call him and meet him in person, and get him to tell us that “Hey, I’m real and this is what I’m like.” But we could just as easily brush that off as a friend fooled by some impostor (remember, we assumed that the writer does not exist, and we want to see a contradiction). Then finally, as a last resort, the writer gives the ultimate proof and shows himself to you and says “Hey, I’m real and this is who I am.” But, we could still easily brush that man off as a fake. If we refuse to believe that then there is no more proof left.
Do you see it now? The problem with proving the existence of a ‘person’ is that you can’t.
And in this respect, Jesus Christ is the ultimate proof of God’s existence. Of course, for your question, “if God wanted to prove Himself, why doesn’t He just show some great miracle right here, right now?” The answer? He has. The Christ was asked the same question ages ago, and He plainly says, “None shall be given you except the sign [of the resurrection].” If we refuse to believe Him then there is no more proof left for us.
To believe is to see. Now you would say, “That’s stupid.” Yes, I completely agree. But that’s the way that God has chosen to reveal Himself.
“God chose the stupid things of the world to shame the wise, and the weak things of this world to shame the strong.”
“The message of the cross is foolishness to those who are perishing, but to us who are being saved it is the power of God.”
“Anyone who comes to Him must believe that He exists. Anyone who comes to Him must believe that he rewards those who earnestly seek Him.”
I can go on, but I believe that these would suffice.
Of course, this conclusion inevitably brings us to the historicity of the gospels. Many have written about it, and many still are doing so. I think it would be best tackled some other time.
Sunday, September 28, 2014
September 28 2014 Sunday
Today I am ashamed. I had forgotten that I was supposed to be the presider for the service. Well, here are my excuses (I'll say it here and here alone; I have no obligation to explain myself to others): mama is the scripture reader, and I just trusted that somehow she would remind me, like always. Well, at least I've learned that I'm on my own now. Maybe I should go enter a dorm, considering the current 2-hour travel time.
Edit: so apparently ate P did not talk to mama, but to dad, and we both forgot. Still does not change my realization though.
It's a funny thing, that for a moment I was afraid of being judged by Christians. It's funny that I had to remind myself "it is God who justifies." But it's not funny at all that I know that Christians will judge, that they will gossip, and then say that they "forgive" and extend "grace" so that they would feel good. I know how it feels, since I used to be like that too. It's totally pretentious. Instead, they should just say the truth that they are disappointed (in grace and love, of course).
Ah well, enough about that. The summer moon shines steadily. I hope this lasts. However, I'm thinking that the sun cannot shine brightly with the summer moon governing the sky. I'm talking about satisfaction and happiness and rest in Christ and in Christ alone, not on His chosen people (if you read my entry a few days after I met the summer moon, you'll get what I'm saying).
Nonetheless, this is only a metaphor (more like a play of words) and there is more to this issue of delighting in God than that.
Edit: so apparently ate P did not talk to mama, but to dad, and we both forgot. Still does not change my realization though.
It's a funny thing, that for a moment I was afraid of being judged by Christians. It's funny that I had to remind myself "it is God who justifies." But it's not funny at all that I know that Christians will judge, that they will gossip, and then say that they "forgive" and extend "grace" so that they would feel good. I know how it feels, since I used to be like that too. It's totally pretentious. Instead, they should just say the truth that they are disappointed (in grace and love, of course).
Ah well, enough about that. The summer moon shines steadily. I hope this lasts. However, I'm thinking that the sun cannot shine brightly with the summer moon governing the sky. I'm talking about satisfaction and happiness and rest in Christ and in Christ alone, not on His chosen people (if you read my entry a few days after I met the summer moon, you'll get what I'm saying).
Nonetheless, this is only a metaphor (more like a play of words) and there is more to this issue of delighting in God than that.
Tuesday, September 9, 2014
September 9 2014 Tuesday
Today I'll catch up. It's been a while.
I've clarified things with the summer moon: I like her, but not romantically. Well, that saves me from a lot of future complications. It's amazing how well she handles guys; but maybe I shouldn't be too surprised with those looks of hers.
Anyway, this journal is not about the summer moon (in case you're wondering). I feel something is off with purplestar. I can't pinpoint it though (as usual). Oh and I feel unproductive. Lots of people are cramming here and there but I am not doing things. I'm not asking for more work though; it's just that it's really uncomfortable for me.
I've clarified things with the summer moon: I like her, but not romantically. Well, that saves me from a lot of future complications. It's amazing how well she handles guys; but maybe I shouldn't be too surprised with those looks of hers.
Anyway, this journal is not about the summer moon (in case you're wondering). I feel something is off with purplestar. I can't pinpoint it though (as usual). Oh and I feel unproductive. Lots of people are cramming here and there but I am not doing things. I'm not asking for more work though; it's just that it's really uncomfortable for me.
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