Oh Lord. I cannot NOT write about this. It's a precious Saturday.
I went to Balanga early, arrived there at around 3 pm. Ate at KFC and read the Silmarillon. Then I walked along capitol ave and I figured I'd look for The Beanery, which is a good place, according to my research and previous recommendations from my friends. It was along the road and I also found Tetak's grill and Lou-is and another Japanese resto. And I walked around the city hall and I decided to rest and continue reading the Silmarillon. I waited until it was 5:40 then I stood by the nearby 7-11 of BPSU waiting for her.
She wasn't hungry yet so she decided we watch a movie (I didn't know there was a moviehouse there, she only heard it too) but the next showing was at 8-10 so we decided to scrap that and just bum around and watch the fountain before dinner. But since we're just gonna sit anyway I suggested we just sit inside Cafe Kyoto.
On our way up the servers told us we were just in time for the opening. They had to temporarily close for a while because of a party. When we got there we were the only ones, from beginning to end. It's like God reserved the whole place for us. Haha.
We talked about anything and everything and I won't write it here because I'll just keep it in my heart.
Then before we went home she bought a gift for her cousin in the department store and I bought some house stuff too.
Then we rode a trike to the highway and we rode a bus. She shut her eyes since she was tired and she was a little sick and oh Lord she's beautiful. She traced the veins in the back of my palm as we talked about IV.
I went with her until alas-asin and I didn't realize there's no bus to get me back home so they ended up driving me to Petron, their whole family, that is. Shame. Hahaha.
I am not used to being on the receiving end of grace from other people. It's the first time I realized what it means to owe love. And I'm sure now that I really like her.
Saturday, April 23, 2016
Sunday, April 10, 2016
April 10, 2016 Sunday
Night shift is fun so far. I would've thought I'd do worse but apparently I can adjust my body clock just fine.
All this talk with A- about personality tests spurred me to answer two in my favorite site similarminds.com
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I don't know what it means by sexual hahaha. But i guess it's not wrong.
Anyway, by God's grace I'm doing great! I am free from porn; not from temptation, but by God's grace alone (yes i have to repeat it) I can escape. Green jokes are a daily bread here, and it's hard not to laugh. But i will train myself not to, for there are things that one should laugh about and things that one should not. Somewhere in proverbs it says that the wicked laugh about doing evil. Non-verbatim of course.
They're not wicked people, by human standards. They're actually pretty good and helpful and all. But of course it's hard to judge based on that; you never know what a person really thinks. In any case I find them very agreeable.
I also change my stance about depravity. I mean, I still believe total depravity, but I also believe that God created man good. So there's no reason to be pessimistic, and there's every reason to believe that we need grace.
I have not given up my daily reading, nor physical exercise (karate, to be specific). I don't have much to tell, but perhaps the thing I have in mind right now is making a facebook page named "Word of Mouth" that puts side by side the modern equivalent of Bible sayings, especially Proverbs. Of course I also want to bring to light the difference between the Bible and modern thought.
In any case an example of is YOLO and "Eat drink and be merry, for tomorrow we will die." I notice a lot of these things during my reading but I have not taken note of them. The reading plan I follow goes through a chapter of proverbs a day anyway so I'll be able to do it. (Not that was not from proverbs but you get the point).
Yesterday was Dad's birthday and I called to greet him and of course he said thank you and take care and the usual eat a lot. We don't have much to talk about I guess. Parents don't usually talk to children about their lives anyway. It's queer; the parent-child relationship can perhaps be the most uninformed yet the closest too. There's something about just being together that makes a person know the other even though they don't actually know everything (like what they do or what they like and dislike and the little things). It doesn't always apply; knowing another person is always intentional. Just like knowing God
Also my shifting allowance will be enough to pay for my vow (that's 22k to missions). I made a vow when I was in high school and we were still in FTB, and I signed this envelope that said P20 a week and there was another that said P50 a week and I was never able to commit to that vow. Mama said it no longer holds but I know otherwise. After that I can give to my parents. And maybe I can make ligaw na (#conyo). Except wala pang liligawan.
It's hard to mingle with new people now, though I have friends that are girls but there's no one that I like enough. Like I tweeted, it's easy to like people. I like everyone (almost). The thing is I want to be friends first because of course what do you expect? Love at first sight? But like I said among my friends there's no one I like enough. There are people that I wouldn't mind, but that's not the same though.
Lately my fantasy is having it the other way around; the girl courting me (This is a remnant of the flesh I'm trying to kill). There's nothing wrong about that though, I mean the idea of the girl courting a guy (but fantasies are generally evil, because "whatever is true... think about such things."). Oftentimes I would be tempted at around 3 AM night shift, even while doing rounds inside the plant.
I'm going to write something about extreme Christianity and I will evaluate whether I should continue hobbies such as manga and LoL, and karate for that matter. The lattermost though, I don't think is evil. It's actually helping me a little in my walk with God.
All this talk with A- about personality tests spurred me to answer two in my favorite site similarminds.com
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Anyway, by God's grace I'm doing great! I am free from porn; not from temptation, but by God's grace alone (yes i have to repeat it) I can escape. Green jokes are a daily bread here, and it's hard not to laugh. But i will train myself not to, for there are things that one should laugh about and things that one should not. Somewhere in proverbs it says that the wicked laugh about doing evil. Non-verbatim of course.
They're not wicked people, by human standards. They're actually pretty good and helpful and all. But of course it's hard to judge based on that; you never know what a person really thinks. In any case I find them very agreeable.
I also change my stance about depravity. I mean, I still believe total depravity, but I also believe that God created man good. So there's no reason to be pessimistic, and there's every reason to believe that we need grace.
I have not given up my daily reading, nor physical exercise (karate, to be specific). I don't have much to tell, but perhaps the thing I have in mind right now is making a facebook page named "Word of Mouth" that puts side by side the modern equivalent of Bible sayings, especially Proverbs. Of course I also want to bring to light the difference between the Bible and modern thought.
In any case an example of is YOLO and "Eat drink and be merry, for tomorrow we will die." I notice a lot of these things during my reading but I have not taken note of them. The reading plan I follow goes through a chapter of proverbs a day anyway so I'll be able to do it. (Not that was not from proverbs but you get the point).
Yesterday was Dad's birthday and I called to greet him and of course he said thank you and take care and the usual eat a lot. We don't have much to talk about I guess. Parents don't usually talk to children about their lives anyway. It's queer; the parent-child relationship can perhaps be the most uninformed yet the closest too. There's something about just being together that makes a person know the other even though they don't actually know everything (like what they do or what they like and dislike and the little things). It doesn't always apply; knowing another person is always intentional. Just like knowing God
Also my shifting allowance will be enough to pay for my vow (that's 22k to missions). I made a vow when I was in high school and we were still in FTB, and I signed this envelope that said P20 a week and there was another that said P50 a week and I was never able to commit to that vow. Mama said it no longer holds but I know otherwise. After that I can give to my parents. And maybe I can make ligaw na (#conyo). Except wala pang liligawan.
It's hard to mingle with new people now, though I have friends that are girls but there's no one that I like enough. Like I tweeted, it's easy to like people. I like everyone (almost). The thing is I want to be friends first because of course what do you expect? Love at first sight? But like I said among my friends there's no one I like enough. There are people that I wouldn't mind, but that's not the same though.
Lately my fantasy is having it the other way around; the girl courting me (This is a remnant of the flesh I'm trying to kill). There's nothing wrong about that though, I mean the idea of the girl courting a guy (but fantasies are generally evil, because "whatever is true... think about such things."). Oftentimes I would be tempted at around 3 AM night shift, even while doing rounds inside the plant.
I'm going to write something about extreme Christianity and I will evaluate whether I should continue hobbies such as manga and LoL, and karate for that matter. The lattermost though, I don't think is evil. It's actually helping me a little in my walk with God.
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