November 16 2015 Monday

Today is the first day after the boards! A lot has happened. I'll continue on to the second day.

So again I woke up at 5 and took a bath and ate breakfast. I bought CBM Yum for lunch during the exam and then thought that it might not be enough. Then I remembered my tendency to sleep after eating so I left it at that. I also met K-, from a friend school. In fact, she introduced herself. I didn't know how to react though so I just said my name too and smiled. Although yesterday she was the first to come after me and she said hi and she was really friendly. But I had to give food to D- so I asked if she can look after my things and she agreed. She's nice just like that. Quite the eyecandy too, I must say.

The exam wasn't proper. You can't say if it's hard or easy at all, because it was just so terrible. And then after the exam I wanted to play LoL but then B- and friends went home. So I studied again with C- at Simple Line after eating tapa at Ruffo's. I left my phone with Dad so I couldn't text D- but she agreed to come. C- didn't have her number. And of course when talking with C- it's impossible to not talk about her, and of course I'm curious on how she's doing and if she's okay. But then I can't do anything after knowing that so oh well. I still like her but I'm doing well now. I wanted to talk to her a bit but then I don't know what to say. I mean she's still avoiding me, after all. C- says she thinks it's awkward to suddenly be okay. I beg to disagree but then if that's how she feels then I respect it. It also helps me a lot to be honest. We also talked about other things like ChE. But of course it didn't stick as much.

On the third day, I woke up at 2 am and decided to check the internet for things that might show up. Mostly ES11 and ES13 stuff. None of them showed up though. The star asked about sinking fund and SoYD which was about 2 questions in the exam. The third day was easy. I was done at around 10 AM and and have finalized at 12 NN. I took a nap after that and the proctor woke me up after 30 minutes. Apparently the whole room was aware that I was sleeping because the proctor was trying to wake me up for so long. Can't help it; I was already draming. I ate Yum w/ TLC for lunch, although jabee didn't have tomato then so they replaced it with more cheese instead, which I liked.

And I talked to her a little after the exam and then she said it was difficult and that's okay! I pray everyday that she will pass. Along with everyone else too of course.

Here are some of the problems I encountered on the board exam
in general:
Typewritten makes it hard to read.
Lots of typos
Erroneous given
Erroneous answer

The results will be released on nov 23. I don't really have much to talk about regarding the boards. Although I hear a lot of people have been, well, stressed, to say the least.

I asked T- to have lunch on wednesday. It'll be the last time we see each other probably. She'll go home on Saturday.

November 13, 2015 Friday

Today is the first day of exam! My reactions:

"I don't know anything about mercury. Don't ask me!!"

"I'm SO glad I didn't study too much. It'd have been useless. At least I had time for my hobbies."

I back calculated a lot! Haha. Intelligent guesses here and there. The grammar was terrible. The exam is a hodgepodge useless questions (those that are SO basic they're not worth 1 point) and impossible questions (missing/typo in given, no answers in the choices, useless conceptual terms only show-off nerds want to know). It was really bad. Really, really bad. Hence, reaction 2.

So there! There's still tomorrow. I'll tell the details of the nonboard stuff on monday.

November 13, 2015 Friday

Today is the first day of exam! My reactions:

"I don't know anything about mercury. Don't ask me!!"

"I'm SO glad I didn't study too much. It'd have been useless. At least I had time for my hobbies."

I back calculated a lot! Haha. Intelligent guesses here and there. The grammar was terrible. The exam is a hodgepodge useless questions (those that are SO basic they're not worth 1 point) and impossible questions (missing/typo in given, no answers in the choices, useless conceptual terms only show-off nerds want to know). It was really bad. Really, really bad. Hence, reaction 2.

So there! There's still tomorrow. I'll tell the details of the nonboard stuff on monday.

November 12 2015 Thursday

Tomorrow we start the board exam! I have a lot to say about yesterday but I just want to pray now.

Father in heaven, lumalapit po ako sa Inyo sa pamamagitan ng dugo ni Hesus. Lord tulungan niyo po kami lahat pumasa; si crystelle, si chan, si estelle, si elise, aaron, rj, hanna, carl, tracy, arianne, gill, danzen; Lord sana po 100% passing rate kami sa UP at lahat po ng friends ko. Please provide them assurance, at wag po silang madala sa kaba, and give them wisdom to use all that they have studied as You have helped them in everyday. In all honesty, I desire to be top 1 too, but humble me, for I know and You know that the honor You have previously given has gotten into my head lately. I only ask na patuloy niyo pong tulungan ako as I do my best after all the preparation. May Your will be done. Amen.

November 9, 2015 Sunday

Today is 198 day! I couldn't sleep well last night so I woke up at 2:30 I think and studied a little.

Then I went to class and then checked the t-shirts and they aren't still there.

Nothing much happened, really. Although DR is very interesting.

Then I read from C- S-'s post about people with anxiety. Then I thought of her. Well I guess we are just a really bad match, that's all. But I did want to give it a try, if it had been okay with her. After all, great relationships are made, not found.

I wonder, is being good to people bad? Why can't everyone just be nice? Of course, I'm speaking from my extremely limited point of view. I know I am extremely privileged in my upbringing, compared to most people.

And they I got mad at mom because of her usual nagging even late at night.

November 8 2015 Sunday

Today I met the team! It was really good seeing them, hearing about the world past the board exam: plans, fulfilment, money, etc. And well, they told a little of their story in the boards and it encouraged me a little. Although D- wasn't there. I wonder if he's really vying for top. I don't think it's worth it.

Anyway, I'll keep the conversation to myself because it's not about me. I really like how I'm doing right now, to be honest. I don't know which exactly; I guess it's the direction I'm facing. Except for that.

November 7, 2015 Saturday

Today I studied a little of fluid mech. Actually all of it. Took me 3 hours or so. And I wasted the rest of my time. Not really wasted; just didn't study. I don't know what else to study honestly. I'm confident for day 1 and 3. Confident as in, confident that I learned what I need to learn. It includes day 2 too, I suppose. It's just that I haven't had much practice for some day 2 subjects. Mostly just the obscure ones. I think I can find it in Perry's though.

Is that arrogant? I'm not doing this to show off. I mean, doing the other things. Like piano and writing. I know, bad use of period. But I want to say it that way. I suppose it's insensitive, if anything. But then that viewpoint is largely rooted from our smart-shaming culture. Because people think I'm smart. When in reality, I just enjoy learning things.

If I spend an extra hour a day of studying, for the past 15 years that would have been 5475 hours of learning. And I spend more than just 1 hour. It's an accumulated advantage; every extra hour that has been built into my foundations is a stepping stone to quickly learn more in the next hour.

So it's not that I don't study well; I already have been doing that for years.

Of course, pre-test preparations are important too. Like body condition, feeling of the exam, having a feel of the questions, etc etc. In all honesty I've had a knack for that ever since the SAT but I also recognize that those things feel stupid. Because they're not really useful in real life. But then I want to do what I can too so I'll be using those.

So there's that.

I also played LoL with my brother after his ChE 101 exam. I played Lux and I did pretty well. We won; it was a very good game.

I've upped the tempo of revolutionary etude to 116. It's pretty decent now, so I guess I'll perfect it at that speed and then increase slowly to 160. I also tries playing Für Elise with a metronome, and I found out I was playing it too fast. As in really fast. And that my finger slips a lot. So I'll be working on those two before I proceed to others. I have a list actually, but the next two I think is Grande Valse Brillante and Moonlight Sonata. I've played them before too, it's just that I never really took it seriously.

I want to wriiite! I have a lot of things in mind. But I'm killing myself with these useless hobbies. I really need to focus.