Today I am ashamed. I had forgotten that I was supposed to be the presider for the service. Well, here are my excuses (I'll say it here and here alone; I have no obligation to explain myself to others): mama is the scripture reader, and I just trusted that somehow she would remind me, like always. Well, at least I've learned that I'm on my own now. Maybe I should go enter a dorm, considering the current 2-hour travel time.
Edit: so apparently ate P did not talk to mama, but to dad, and we both forgot. Still does not change my realization though.
It's a funny thing, that for a moment I was afraid of being judged by Christians. It's funny that I had to remind myself "it is God who justifies." But it's not funny at all that I know that Christians will judge, that they will gossip, and then say that they "forgive" and extend "grace" so that they would feel good. I know how it feels, since I used to be like that too. It's totally pretentious. Instead, they should just say the truth that they are disappointed (in grace and love, of course).
Ah well, enough about that. The summer moon shines steadily. I hope this lasts. However, I'm thinking that the sun cannot shine brightly with the summer moon governing the sky. I'm talking about satisfaction and happiness and rest in Christ and in Christ alone, not on His chosen people (if you read my entry a few days after I met the summer moon, you'll get what I'm saying).
Nonetheless, this is only a metaphor (more like a play of words) and there is more to this issue of delighting in God than that.
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