It's valentines! No date, as usual. The pressure is incredibly heavy. Everyone's fretting about not having a date. Christians, on the other hand, say "you can love each other better if you both love God" or something like that.
But in reality it should be this way: "you can love God more if you love each other." Otherwise just stay single. That's what apostle Paul is talking about in his letter to the Corinthians. It's not really just satisfying the lust, but keeping away from sin, which is ultimately to please God and give him glory. And yes, I'm referring to romantical love, not spiritual brotherly love.
Anyway, Malaine did a little something for me! It's three notes tacked on a cork board, and I'm really quite happy about it. We should meet soon.
Do I like her? That's always the question about me and girls ain't it? Especially since it's valentines. Hmm I liked her back in high school. But my close friend then was her, well, almost boyfriend. She's very masipag (industrious doesn't cut it) and strict and nice and sweet and caring at the same time. But I really liked that she had conviction, not about useless things but about her principles. And that's very, very, very rare now (yes, triple emphasis is necessary)
I have my principles too. But I'm very double-minded. Yet there's also one thing I have always and will always hold on to: my faith in Christ Jesus.
She doesn't have that. That's why I can't. Like I told /her/ (not malaine), "mahirap mabuhay nang di mo nashshare yung sweetest thing sa buhay mo" (It's hard to live without sharing with your partner the sweetest thing in your life). I used to pray for her to get saved - not evangeligaw, but a genuine concern for her soul - but I kinda stopped along the way. I bought a cute little orange bible for her before too. Hope she read it. I don't know. God does.
So because I don't know, then no or not yet. As we Christians like to say, "don't awaken love until it so desires." It's the biggest lesson I've learned from /her/. And I'm not gonna make the same mistake again.
Anyway, what I'm looking for in a girl (so far) is this:
1. Follower of Christ (someone who seeks Him, not merely wearing a label)
2. Patient
3. Humble
4. /May Prinsipyo/
Thinking about it, malaine actually fits perfectly the auxilliaries. Summer moon isn't exactly up to the last 3, and /she/ doesn't even get #1. But I loved /her/ anyway haha. Either way I won't be courting anyone soon because
1. I'm immature (not experienced with romantic things)
2. I'm unclean (don't really want my partner to suffer my burden. But I do hope she'd be patient enough. Even better if she does)
3. I tend to lose my focus in God while dealing with crushes
I don't really know about #1 since I disagree with most courting methods (I tried but it's a disaster, or rather, I'm a disaster), even that of Christians. And of course I'm not going to get tips from the world where FUBUs are ideal. It's not even love. And I don't really want to experiment with people anymore (I tried it a little before too in the name of Mr. Nice Guy but it's another Chernobyl)
Anyway I want to fix issue #3 first, but that also makes trait #1 really, really important.
It's a long love rant, and I picked a little of thinking in branches and enumerating reasons from The Catcher in the Rye and The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time (both really good books).
While texting Jenny (apparently she GM'd Happy Valentine's Day) about That Thing callrd Tadhana I was reminded of the question "why would you choose to love someone at all?" Not love as in "love your neighbor," but love as in married love. Why dedicate yourself and your work and time and sweat and thoughts and life to someone else?
I think the answer is in what I said earlier. "Love each other because you can love God better. Otherwise don't." That's pretty much it.
Au revoir! Bonne nuit :)
But in reality it should be this way: "you can love God more if you love each other." Otherwise just stay single. That's what apostle Paul is talking about in his letter to the Corinthians. It's not really just satisfying the lust, but keeping away from sin, which is ultimately to please God and give him glory. And yes, I'm referring to romantical love, not spiritual brotherly love.
Anyway, Malaine did a little something for me! It's three notes tacked on a cork board, and I'm really quite happy about it. We should meet soon.
Do I like her? That's always the question about me and girls ain't it? Especially since it's valentines. Hmm I liked her back in high school. But my close friend then was her, well, almost boyfriend. She's very masipag (industrious doesn't cut it) and strict and nice and sweet and caring at the same time. But I really liked that she had conviction, not about useless things but about her principles. And that's very, very, very rare now (yes, triple emphasis is necessary)
I have my principles too. But I'm very double-minded. Yet there's also one thing I have always and will always hold on to: my faith in Christ Jesus.
She doesn't have that. That's why I can't. Like I told /her/ (not malaine), "mahirap mabuhay nang di mo nashshare yung sweetest thing sa buhay mo" (It's hard to live without sharing with your partner the sweetest thing in your life). I used to pray for her to get saved - not evangeligaw, but a genuine concern for her soul - but I kinda stopped along the way. I bought a cute little orange bible for her before too. Hope she read it. I don't know. God does.
So because I don't know, then no or not yet. As we Christians like to say, "don't awaken love until it so desires." It's the biggest lesson I've learned from /her/. And I'm not gonna make the same mistake again.
Anyway, what I'm looking for in a girl (so far) is this:
1. Follower of Christ (someone who seeks Him, not merely wearing a label)
2. Patient
3. Humble
4. /May Prinsipyo/
Thinking about it, malaine actually fits perfectly the auxilliaries. Summer moon isn't exactly up to the last 3, and /she/ doesn't even get #1. But I loved /her/ anyway haha. Either way I won't be courting anyone soon because
1. I'm immature (not experienced with romantic things)
2. I'm unclean (don't really want my partner to suffer my burden. But I do hope she'd be patient enough. Even better if she does)
3. I tend to lose my focus in God while dealing with crushes
I don't really know about #1 since I disagree with most courting methods (I tried but it's a disaster, or rather, I'm a disaster), even that of Christians. And of course I'm not going to get tips from the world where FUBUs are ideal. It's not even love. And I don't really want to experiment with people anymore (I tried it a little before too in the name of Mr. Nice Guy but it's another Chernobyl)
Anyway I want to fix issue #3 first, but that also makes trait #1 really, really important.
It's a long love rant, and I picked a little of thinking in branches and enumerating reasons from The Catcher in the Rye and The Curious Incident of the Dog in the Night-Time (both really good books).
While texting Jenny (apparently she GM'd Happy Valentine's Day) about That Thing callrd Tadhana I was reminded of the question "why would you choose to love someone at all?" Not love as in "love your neighbor," but love as in married love. Why dedicate yourself and your work and time and sweat and thoughts and life to someone else?
I think the answer is in what I said earlier. "Love each other because you can love God better. Otherwise don't." That's pretty much it.
Au revoir! Bonne nuit :)
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