Today is a happy day! More or less. So in the morning we transferred the FID PC to the TCD room and made some other arrangements like transfer the 1% H2:N2 tank to the room and get the regulator from ma'am Julie.
Then I was chill as usual and I played the guitar and I think I'm getting better a little but I still want to know how to do plucking and how it becomes spontaneous. And I wasn't able to do a lot of PD because I was thinking of thesis.
It was also the last meeting for CW10 today.
She was wearing this and she looked really... well HAHA let's not say it. But yeah. That killed me.
And salted wintermelon is currently my favorite milktea flavor. France chose the flavor for me.
Then later around 5 pm I was playing the guitar (again) then ma'am Emma came and announced that Shimadzu would come! It's sir RC again, the same one as last time (I won't disclose the name here because I found a lot of details of his life haha). For the record my first impression of him was a grumpy man. It's partly true but as I learned later he's actually nice.
So he setup the computer and he wasn't the most well-versed about it but well, he knows more than we do about the column. Then we did a lot and found that the old computer had no USB-serial driver so we had to resort to use the FID computer which we transferred earlier. Then it worked and we ate KFC which we delivered earlier.
WHen I went home I hitched a ride with sir RC because I found out by chatting with him that he is from Lagro and I'm from Almar. And his son studied in Fairview Baptist Academy which was where a daughter of our churchmate goes to (Mom later said it was the Batallas) and I figured I'd ask where church they belong to and he said it was VCF Robinson's which is near us too (we actually went there once I think before we went to GCF Northeast) and okay that's enough about his life someone they know might read this and information in the internet is dangerous hahaha. The thing is it's interesting to know that someone is actually a Christian. At least by identification/affiliation.
I lost my wallet in FETS again I think which is the only sad thing that happened today.
And then I was thinking of this on the way home which I also said to ate Shiela (I also told her the vision)
"What is a ministry?"
And I was thinking of a scenario of someone being ashamed while saying "I don't have a ministry"
Then someone replying "I thought you were a student?"
"Well yes"
"Isn't that a ministry?"
Then there's this thoughtful silence, then he continues
"Well, what is a ministry?"
Then the ashamed person wonders and thinks silently and that's it.
Well if I think about it ministry is serving God and serving God is serving people. I mean, it's not mostly about singing and preaching like churches limit themselves to, (although they are an important support to the church). After all the greatest commandment is "Love the Lord your God with all of you" and the second is LIKE IT "Love your neighbor as you love yourself." (emphasis mine, obviously). So loving our neighbors is like loving God. And it's very hard. But being a student we can love our neighbors too. Or being someone else, not just being a church person. So maybe next time someone asks me "what's your ministry" I'll reply "I'm a student" hahaha.
Hopefully I graduate soon! I mean Shimadzu coming out of nowhere isn't what I expected (Elise said earlier that they didn't have any plans of coming soon) and I believe that it is God's work. I mean well yes, everything is the work of the Sovereign Hand of God but this one is specifically telling me "chill, I've got this."
Which is the reason I chilled in the first place. So I have nothing more to say but to worship my God now xD
Thursday, May 14, 2015
Wednesday, May 13, 2015
May 13 2015 Wednesday
Today Shimadzu didn't come again and the star is getting worried.
Also I talked to her and she says it's nothing. I'll believe her.
Anyway I've been thinking about this for a while. I think I have posted this before but I have some modifications so I want to post it again. This is why this post is tagged under "question."
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Is salvation free?
No. Why would it be?
Because Christ paid for it-
Exactly. Christ paid for it, so how could it be free? The price of salvation is the blood of Christ. It is a free gift, yes, but it is the most expensive gift you can ever have. And to trample on it is the worst thing you could ever do. For even if you suffered in hell for all eternity you would never be able to pay for that moment when the Father turned His back on His Son.
What do you mean to trample on God's gift?
If I gave you flowers and you put it on the ground and trampled on it, wouldn't that be rude? In the same way, if we receive the gift and then only later to turn our back on it then there is no longer any sacrifice left for us. If you were a doctor and I gave you a new stethoscope, and you said "Thank you! Let me pay for it," and gave me twenty pesos, wouldn't that be rude? In the same way, if we try to earn our salvation or our right to enter God's presence using our measly good works then it would be the same as rejecting the gift altogether. If I gave you a P1000-peso bill and you used it as a tissue paper saying "It's fine, it's free anyway," wouldn't that be rude? In the same way if we use the freedom Christ bought for us as a license to sin then it would be the same as rejecting the gift altogether.
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That's pretty much it. I think it's a nice analogy.
Also I talked to her and she says it's nothing. I'll believe her.
Anyway I've been thinking about this for a while. I think I have posted this before but I have some modifications so I want to post it again. This is why this post is tagged under "question."
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Is salvation free?
No. Why would it be?
Because Christ paid for it-
Exactly. Christ paid for it, so how could it be free? The price of salvation is the blood of Christ. It is a free gift, yes, but it is the most expensive gift you can ever have. And to trample on it is the worst thing you could ever do. For even if you suffered in hell for all eternity you would never be able to pay for that moment when the Father turned His back on His Son.
What do you mean to trample on God's gift?
If I gave you flowers and you put it on the ground and trampled on it, wouldn't that be rude? In the same way, if we receive the gift and then only later to turn our back on it then there is no longer any sacrifice left for us. If you were a doctor and I gave you a new stethoscope, and you said "Thank you! Let me pay for it," and gave me twenty pesos, wouldn't that be rude? In the same way, if we try to earn our salvation or our right to enter God's presence using our measly good works then it would be the same as rejecting the gift altogether. If I gave you a P1000-peso bill and you used it as a tissue paper saying "It's fine, it's free anyway," wouldn't that be rude? In the same way if we use the freedom Christ bought for us as a license to sin then it would be the same as rejecting the gift altogether.
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That's pretty much it. I think it's a nice analogy.
Tuesday, May 12, 2015
May 11 2015 Monday
Today the star asked, "what's the difference between Catholicism and Christianity?" I told the fundamental doctrine of salvation and she asked the standard question of "not being required to do good." And I also talked to Hyae about Destiny church and reasons for worship. She goes to church for blessings, but I said I'm not like that. So I think I want to clarify those things since they are actually closely related.
What separates Christianity? Simply, it is the risen Christ. Whatever religion or beliefs or belief system, that is the mark of a Christian: he believes in the risen Christ.
What do I mean believe? You could say that even demons believe in the risen Christ. But that's not the faith I'm talking about. It's hard to discuss in English; even James the servant of Christ dedicated a whole book to it and people still get confused.
In Filipino it's easier to understand. "Paniniwala" is different from "Pagtitiwala." The former refers to belief while the latter refers to giving of trust. Both in english is faith/belief.
When you say you have "paniniwala" in Christ you believe that He is God and He is the ultimate good and He is the Lord of all and He is the Savior. When you say have "pagtitiwala" in Christ you trust that His death on the cross is sufficient for salvation. You trust that whatever happens He is God in control of all and He is good. You trust Him as a Lord and obey all His commandments. You trust that He is the ultimate good and so you are willing to abandon everything in pursuit of Him.
Of course that's the tiny tip of the iceberg. I could go on and on about the attributes of God but it would take too long.
(From what I've read in Catholic doctrine Jesus isn't Savior per se because He only provides a way to be saved. It is still up to humans to save themselves.)
Which brings me to blessings. God is the ultimate good and to seek Him for His blessings is really missing the joy of it all. I really hope that God would reveal Himself to Hyae so she would see that. Probably not the same vision that I had but of course God is a creative and wonderfuk God.
Anyway faith is both "paniniwala" and "pagtitiwala." It's so much easier in Filipino. But I cannot think in Hebrew but I hear "faith" there means both as if it was only really one concept. The Greek concept of separating the mind from the body is really prevalent which makes reading the Bible so hard sometimes.
Anyway I'll read up more on Catholic doctrine sometimes. I believe that there are Catholics who are true Christians too. After all, if you believe in your heart and confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, you will be saved (Note the context of a Roman guard, who would need to commit treason for saying Jesus instead of Caesar. That's suicide. That's faith.) Faith in Christ goes beyond culture.
I also sent sir Jimievard a copy of the book Desiring God by John Piper. I hope he reads it. Well the bottomline there is AMDG but in a different perspective because it's not what we do or sacrifice for God, but what we enjoy that pleases Him. I'll read that book too after things are okay.
The GC Column is still not fixed. At this rate we really might not graduate hahaha :)). But "cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you."
What separates Christianity? Simply, it is the risen Christ. Whatever religion or beliefs or belief system, that is the mark of a Christian: he believes in the risen Christ.
What do I mean believe? You could say that even demons believe in the risen Christ. But that's not the faith I'm talking about. It's hard to discuss in English; even James the servant of Christ dedicated a whole book to it and people still get confused.
In Filipino it's easier to understand. "Paniniwala" is different from "Pagtitiwala." The former refers to belief while the latter refers to giving of trust. Both in english is faith/belief.
When you say you have "paniniwala" in Christ you believe that He is God and He is the ultimate good and He is the Lord of all and He is the Savior. When you say have "pagtitiwala" in Christ you trust that His death on the cross is sufficient for salvation. You trust that whatever happens He is God in control of all and He is good. You trust Him as a Lord and obey all His commandments. You trust that He is the ultimate good and so you are willing to abandon everything in pursuit of Him.
Of course that's the tiny tip of the iceberg. I could go on and on about the attributes of God but it would take too long.
(From what I've read in Catholic doctrine Jesus isn't Savior per se because He only provides a way to be saved. It is still up to humans to save themselves.)
Which brings me to blessings. God is the ultimate good and to seek Him for His blessings is really missing the joy of it all. I really hope that God would reveal Himself to Hyae so she would see that. Probably not the same vision that I had but of course God is a creative and wonderfuk God.
Anyway faith is both "paniniwala" and "pagtitiwala." It's so much easier in Filipino. But I cannot think in Hebrew but I hear "faith" there means both as if it was only really one concept. The Greek concept of separating the mind from the body is really prevalent which makes reading the Bible so hard sometimes.
Anyway I'll read up more on Catholic doctrine sometimes. I believe that there are Catholics who are true Christians too. After all, if you believe in your heart and confess with your mouth that Jesus is Lord, you will be saved (Note the context of a Roman guard, who would need to commit treason for saying Jesus instead of Caesar. That's suicide. That's faith.) Faith in Christ goes beyond culture.
I also sent sir Jimievard a copy of the book Desiring God by John Piper. I hope he reads it. Well the bottomline there is AMDG but in a different perspective because it's not what we do or sacrifice for God, but what we enjoy that pleases Him. I'll read that book too after things are okay.
The GC Column is still not fixed. At this rate we really might not graduate hahaha :)). But "cast all your cares upon Him, for He cares for you."
May 12 2015 Tuesday
Today I got new glasses! It's gray and a bit big and a little square and I don't know how to describe it. I bought one last Sunday and I think it looks pretty nice on me. Not that it makes me handsome, but at least I'm less unattractive on it. Actually I was supposed to get it yesterday but I forgot haha.
It doesn't matter though because I timed it to my favorite gray polo and black shoes and also because I looked forward to the dance later! But she wasn't there. :( I asked her to be my partner last night so maybe she feels awkward about that. Though she did say it was okay with her. (I trembled a little when she said that. Okay, maybe trembled a lot.)
I actually asked her just now if she feels like that but of course she never replies on text.
Also Mike and Grenny's cheese is good! I really like the stretching thing in Mozzarella. And I like the mild taste of salt. But the word "imaginable" in the survey form is so relative. I have a fairly good imagination so I couldn't give high marks.
Don is still up for dance and I told Almira I'll go if she's going and she said fine she's going so I think it's going to push through. I'm going even though half the reason I want to dance is gone because I still want to dance too.
We pushed through with the dance and I like what I'm learning. It's really based on principles and the basics are really emphasized.
Shimadzu still hasn't visited so we can't do Gas Chrom. No panic. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, present your requests to God and the peace of God which transcends all understanding will keep you and guard you in Christ Jesus.
I forgot the verse though but I think it's in Philippians.
I'm doing okay in PD. I'm done transplanting my section except for the pipes because the arrows are very small. The collosal arrowhead is hardly visible at 10% view. I need to put manually the arrowheads in triangle. I'll also get the sizes of the equipment from the two of them tomorrow.
So apparently she overslept. Haha. I want to talk to her tomorrow.
The summer moon peeked from the clouds and sent some quotes which I don't know how to interpret. We talked a little. I told her everything already so she should have gotten that.
It doesn't matter though because I timed it to my favorite gray polo and black shoes and also because I looked forward to the dance later! But she wasn't there. :( I asked her to be my partner last night so maybe she feels awkward about that. Though she did say it was okay with her. (I trembled a little when she said that. Okay, maybe trembled a lot.)
I actually asked her just now if she feels like that but of course she never replies on text.
Also Mike and Grenny's cheese is good! I really like the stretching thing in Mozzarella. And I like the mild taste of salt. But the word "imaginable" in the survey form is so relative. I have a fairly good imagination so I couldn't give high marks.
Don is still up for dance and I told Almira I'll go if she's going and she said fine she's going so I think it's going to push through. I'm going even though half the reason I want to dance is gone because I still want to dance too.
We pushed through with the dance and I like what I'm learning. It's really based on principles and the basics are really emphasized.
Shimadzu still hasn't visited so we can't do Gas Chrom. No panic. Do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, present your requests to God and the peace of God which transcends all understanding will keep you and guard you in Christ Jesus.
I forgot the verse though but I think it's in Philippians.
I'm doing okay in PD. I'm done transplanting my section except for the pipes because the arrows are very small. The collosal arrowhead is hardly visible at 10% view. I need to put manually the arrowheads in triangle. I'll also get the sizes of the equipment from the two of them tomorrow.
So apparently she overslept. Haha. I want to talk to her tomorrow.
The summer moon peeked from the clouds and sent some quotes which I don't know how to interpret. We talked a little. I told her everything already so she should have gotten that.
Monday, May 11, 2015
May 10 2015 Sunday
Today we ate at Kenny Roger's! It's mother's day and for some unusual reason they decided to eat somewhere different. It's my third time in Kenny's!
We ate roasted chicken and I had potato and chives or something and it was really good! The chicken's flavor and aroma goes beyond the spices in the skin and into the soft yet chewy meat. The mild taste of the gravy doesn't overshadow the savory flavor but complements it as the meat melts in a mouth bursting with flavor. I also tried the other side dishes like corn and carrots and mashed potato and macaroni and cheese and they were also good. I am happy.
Also for dinner the fried squid dipped in sukang paombong is very delicious.
So I accompanied Hyae in Destiny's service. I wanted to see for myself whether the rumors are true seeing as ate Shiela doesn't exactly fit the stereotype.
So when she introduced me to mike the first thing I learned was he was from physics. And he's not really exactly good with small talk. Which is fine. Then the first thing he asked about our church was the attendance and in my head I was like, really? And when he introduced their small group the first thing he said was the credentials of the members.
Now firsts are very important because it shows what they emphasize.
And then the service was very pentecostal and sounded a lot like prosperity gospel. Very repetitive and hardly Scriptural. Although I'm okay with pentecostal formats (I'm slightly used to them) it's really sad how much they emphasize the blessing and prosperity. I mean the obedience part is well and good but the motivation for it is blessing. Material blessing.
They reminded me of the church in Sardis.
God really blesses people materially too. In fact there isn't any divide between the material and the spiritual for Jesus is the Lord of them both. There's also prosperity gospel in the old Hebrew culture. Jesus Christ overthrew that belief by healing the man born blind. And the apostles weren't exactly blessed that way, right? I think it is for God to bless while it is ours to be content, give and serve.
But I'm sure God honors their faith. One way or another. It's what's important. Provided faith is real, that is. There is a faith in Jesus that is selfish. I don't think that's saving faith.
I'm not looking for material blessing. I want to be holy ever since that vision. But my heart is easily distracted.
We ate roasted chicken and I had potato and chives or something and it was really good! The chicken's flavor and aroma goes beyond the spices in the skin and into the soft yet chewy meat. The mild taste of the gravy doesn't overshadow the savory flavor but complements it as the meat melts in a mouth bursting with flavor. I also tried the other side dishes like corn and carrots and mashed potato and macaroni and cheese and they were also good. I am happy.
Also for dinner the fried squid dipped in sukang paombong is very delicious.
So I accompanied Hyae in Destiny's service. I wanted to see for myself whether the rumors are true seeing as ate Shiela doesn't exactly fit the stereotype.
So when she introduced me to mike the first thing I learned was he was from physics. And he's not really exactly good with small talk. Which is fine. Then the first thing he asked about our church was the attendance and in my head I was like, really? And when he introduced their small group the first thing he said was the credentials of the members.
Now firsts are very important because it shows what they emphasize.
And then the service was very pentecostal and sounded a lot like prosperity gospel. Very repetitive and hardly Scriptural. Although I'm okay with pentecostal formats (I'm slightly used to them) it's really sad how much they emphasize the blessing and prosperity. I mean the obedience part is well and good but the motivation for it is blessing. Material blessing.
They reminded me of the church in Sardis.
God really blesses people materially too. In fact there isn't any divide between the material and the spiritual for Jesus is the Lord of them both. There's also prosperity gospel in the old Hebrew culture. Jesus Christ overthrew that belief by healing the man born blind. And the apostles weren't exactly blessed that way, right? I think it is for God to bless while it is ours to be content, give and serve.
But I'm sure God honors their faith. One way or another. It's what's important. Provided faith is real, that is. There is a faith in Jesus that is selfish. I don't think that's saving faith.
I'm not looking for material blessing. I want to be holy ever since that vision. But my heart is easily distracted.
Sunday, May 10, 2015
May 9 2015 Saturday take 2
Okayy now that I got some sleep I think I can write my thoughts.
So I kinda drained the battery last night. So I couldn't use the laptop this morning because I forgot the charger in FETS, or so I thought. Which isn't really a problem except that I CAN'T STUDY FOR THE EXAM LATER.
I freaked out a little but then quickly resigned myself to that fate. So thanks to hanna who asked questions I could study a little. Then right before I was about to leave my mom told me, "andito charger mo ah baka makalimutan mo (your charger is here, don't forget it)." But I couldn't bring the laptop because I already have lots of sticks in my hand not to mention I don't like going home late at night with such a precious thing with me. (Although I do like going home with her but that's for later haha)
So I went to PE and John Dee was at flag football practicals so I did an impromptu with someone whose partner was absent too.
Then I went to DChE really early and kinda wished she was there like a 182 exam before but no she wasn't.
So marion and I studied mostly and I sat again in between the alchemes and KEM grouping.
After the exam C- said she'll PM me about something later. Then I asked what and C- smiled so I understood what it was. And it was raining hard so I used that as an excuse to talk to her and ask if maybe I could hitch a ride. She said yes (although she was reluctant at first). Then a few minutes later someone called me that people to philcoa can hitch with ma'am de leon and I thought hard if I should go with her or not. In the end I didn't go with her because I don't know. I was partly shy and partly unwilling to express my feelings publicy.
Although just earlier I talked to our pastor and he said it's okay to express it which I was planning to do some days ago already. Although when I see her all of my thoughts fly out of my head like a confused flock of birds upon a mere step of an elegant tigress.
About that meeting with pastor, we talked my issues and the mind and diversion of energy. Of course it's deeper than that but I want to keep this one to myself.
Then when I went home I stayed up a little late to talk with C- and what she said about her drove me crazy. Anyway regardless of that I was already planning things so we'll see how it turns out
And by plan I mean a farfetched wish. But now that I have a concrete goal (thanks to pastor and C-) maybe I can flesh it out a little now. Let's start with this tuesday
Oh and I hope she'll be safe in Pinatubo tomorrow because there's an upcoming storm.
So I kinda drained the battery last night. So I couldn't use the laptop this morning because I forgot the charger in FETS, or so I thought. Which isn't really a problem except that I CAN'T STUDY FOR THE EXAM LATER.
I freaked out a little but then quickly resigned myself to that fate. So thanks to hanna who asked questions I could study a little. Then right before I was about to leave my mom told me, "andito charger mo ah baka makalimutan mo (your charger is here, don't forget it)." But I couldn't bring the laptop because I already have lots of sticks in my hand not to mention I don't like going home late at night with such a precious thing with me. (Although I do like going home with her but that's for later haha)
So I went to PE and John Dee was at flag football practicals so I did an impromptu with someone whose partner was absent too.
Then I went to DChE really early and kinda wished she was there like a 182 exam before but no she wasn't.
So marion and I studied mostly and I sat again in between the alchemes and KEM grouping.
After the exam C- said she'll PM me about something later. Then I asked what and C- smiled so I understood what it was. And it was raining hard so I used that as an excuse to talk to her and ask if maybe I could hitch a ride. She said yes (although she was reluctant at first). Then a few minutes later someone called me that people to philcoa can hitch with ma'am de leon and I thought hard if I should go with her or not. In the end I didn't go with her because I don't know. I was partly shy and partly unwilling to express my feelings publicy.
Although just earlier I talked to our pastor and he said it's okay to express it which I was planning to do some days ago already. Although when I see her all of my thoughts fly out of my head like a confused flock of birds upon a mere step of an elegant tigress.
About that meeting with pastor, we talked my issues and the mind and diversion of energy. Of course it's deeper than that but I want to keep this one to myself.
Then when I went home I stayed up a little late to talk with C- and what she said about her drove me crazy. Anyway regardless of that I was already planning things so we'll see how it turns out
And by plan I mean a farfetched wish. But now that I have a concrete goal (thanks to pastor and C-) maybe I can flesh it out a little now. Let's start with this tuesday
Oh and I hope she'll be safe in Pinatubo tomorrow because there's an upcoming storm.
Saturday, May 9, 2015
May 9 2015 Saturday
OKAY I'M GOING CRAZY RIGHT NOW
i'll write the details maybe tomorrow. MAYBE but probably not
i'll write the details maybe tomorrow. MAYBE but probably not
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