Saturday, November 7, 2015

November 6, 2015 Friday

Apparently I forgot to post. Today is T-'s birthday! I bought her a slice of red velvet cake as decided. It was supposed to be blueberry cheesecake from RoC but they didn't have it at the time, so oh well. They were about to leave for church too, so my timing is perfect. Anyway she looked nice in that dress. Or whatever it was. I left right away.

So I wanted to eat at maginhawa but entered cheapskate mode so I just bought danggitsilog. I should've eaten something nicer. But I didn't want to spend too much since I already bought cake.

Anyway I asked her in the afternoon if she was happy today, and she was, so I guess alles ist gut. Es ist interessant que ella tiene también a meteor shower near her birthday. North Taurids, was it? En mi cumpleaños tengo los eta Aquarids.

Tambien yo creo que ella tiene algo contrarme, pero estoy empezando a crear que no es gravs

Y estudié mucho en Engglib1. The white DChE polo shirt is taking too long though.

Y cuando yo estaba looking in my old files, I found this ES13 handout. And on one of the front pages was written,

"Kaya mo yan!   =)

lalalala"

in delicate gray pencil strokes. And instantly my heart skipped a bit, even before I recognized it was hers. That was back when we were still close. And I thought I was doing well now, but I guess not. At least, not as much as I thought. Haha. Hayyy. Oh well.

Ce sont alles für hoy. This is weird, mixing languages. But I guess that's better practice than nothing at all. Haha

Thursday, November 5, 2015

November 5 2015 Thursday

I'll settle with a cake. Haha.

Anyway, I just posted a suggestion in duolingo. I hope it gets some attention.

Also, C- messaged after a long time. I wonder how she's doing with them? I hope she's doing well.

I finished phychem, biochem, and envi engg today. Took me around 4 hours I think. That's quite slow. But I'm not really keen on working faster...

You see, I'm so torn with this board exam thing. I want to do well of course, but I don't want to go full crazy on it. I especially don't want to study pointlessly. Like knowing stuff for the sake of an exam, memorizing questions. I HATE that. Also, studying for boards makes me lose the UP mindset. I like analysis questions. It's sad, actually. If rote learning is what it takes to enter top ten then no thanks.

I'm thinking feeling lonely isn't necessarily a bad thing, like being sad or getting angry. It is unhealthy to deny that you want something, as it is unhealthy to indulge everything. So I acknowledge that I feel lonely and I need a companion. Or a partner. There's that. But right now I don't want to think too much about it.

I've upped the speed of chopin's revolutionary etude to 100. I've been doing slow practice for two days now. Also, my Für Elise still has the exact same errors a few years ago -_- I avoided working on it back then, so I have to suffer now. Haha. At least it's nearly perfect. Just two places I make mistakes: the second part near the trill and the downward glissando towards the last part. Not sure about the terms (never really been a term-y kind of person) but you get the point.

November 4, 2015 Wednesday

Today is a fun day! Except mama's annoying nagging right before I sleep. It single-handedly ruined this otherwise excellent day. I'm not going to sleep yet since I'm still full.

Anyway, I answered the inorganic, organic, and analytical chem questions at engglib1. I studied at engglib1 because I met G- in front of EEE and decided to chat a bit and so I walked back to engg (even though I just came there to check up on the DChE polo shirts). Good to see he's doing well. I also met E- after studying, and I invited them both to join the hike, and they said they're going. I'm SO looking forward to it already!

It's almost T-'s birthday and I thought of the perfect gift but decided I can't buy it because I don't have a credit card. So I'll settle with a cake. Also, I think a cake is a proper gift to a friend. Anyway, as you might have noticed I've been studying alone lately. I noticed that too, but I don't think too much about it. Meaning, I just wonder why but decide not to look for answers. It's kinda different from her that I really have to avoid thinking. That is much more difficult than just suppressing my curiosity. But then it's a lot easier now.

And then I went to train and I met this guy, who teaches in Vietnam. Student number 2000-xxxxx, he's very nice and I learned something from him. He's an EL graduate and I realize it's something really of his perspective: that combat is communication. Also, I need to be more flexible and widen my leg spread in order to utilize my strengths such as relative height.

And I learned another 6 of the twelve methods, so that makes it seven.

It's a generally happy day. Good night!

Tuesday, November 3, 2015

November 3 2015 Tuesday

Today I accompanied mama in SM. We bought a watch at ZTC, ate at BBB, went to Rob and bought some teflon and big plastic containers.

Anyway I studied a few chapters in Perry's.

I wonder how the others are doing. They seem to know a lot now. It's funny because no one likes to share info with me unless I ask them for it. And they feel reluctant about it.

And then there's this guy who I think is nagpaparinig. But the thing about parinigs is you're never really sure so even though you hate it, the only way you can get things across is to counter with a parinig.

Anyway, what's interesting is that the misunderstanding is brought about by him projecting himself onto me. We're not even close lol. How did he even assume that he knows me?

I wonder how many times I've misunderstood people by doing that? Of course, I've been making efforts to deal with people as separate individuals but I think that that behavior is subconscious. I wouldn't have noticed myself doing it, but I'll pay closer attention now.

Ghost Stories

Here is the one in fb! I'll include some of the comments.

Since Ate C- asked me also the other day if I believed in ghosts, I think it's not clear enough. I believe that there is something happening, especially since a lot of people experience it, but I do not accept the explanation of ghosts per se. If you notice, I wrote this as a collection of events without any sort of explanation. The big flaw here is that all the information is not accessible; we are left to imagine with what we are given. Perhaps if we knew better, these occurrences might not have been ghosts at all.

But of course, it's entirely possible that they might have been ghosts all along. ;)

In all honesty I thought this was well-written. It did take me 2-3 hours to finish this. However, it wasn't well-received. I guess people don't really like ghost stories, or maybe they thought from the introduction that this was another Bible thing. Haha. But of course, that's part of it.
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If you asked me if I believe in ghosts, I'd tell you I believe in demons. Biblically speaking though, I've heard it often quoted that "man is destined to die once, then to face judgment." Based on this, some say that ghosts do not exist, because there is no mention of an in between. Logically speaking that is an appeal to ignorance. And then there's the story of the rich man and Lazarus. Some argue whether it is a parable or not. In the Old Testament, King Saul summoned for Samuel's ghost, but then some say it wasn't actually his. Either way, it is not uncommon that personal biases tend to be imposed on the text, and these matters are no exception.
In any case, one thing is for sure: we are forbidden to make contact with the dead (and probably for good reason). Whether they can or cannot make contact with us, I do not know.
But in my imagination, it is not far off that the world of spirits is as complex as, if not more than, the world that we live in. Perhaps even more interesting than all the intertwined ecosystems and all the various creatures that live in the jungles and those undiscovered that lurk in the deep. After all, don't we have the same Creator? I think it rather odd for angels (and consequently demons) to live in a boring world.
I've picked up quite an interest in the supernatural and the paranormal as we call it, although I am not allowed to dabble with them myself. Maybe that's exactly what makes them so fascinating and so interesting. Are they real? Why does folklore vary across the world? Why do they have so much in common? Why do they do what they do? What part is fantasy and what part is true?
In my quest for amusement, I've been asking around for some stories. And so here is a collection of some of them that I can get off the top of my head right now, in no particular order.

Legend:
[1] - First-hand source (personal experience)
[2, initials] - Second-hand source (friend's experience)
[3, source] - Third-hand story

Please verify!

1. [2, M.Y.] Apparently, she's one of the most... sensing(?) of my friends. In fact, she never runs out of stories. Her elementary school was located beside a church and a graveyard, and one of their houses (bracket A++, mind you) is antique. She's told me of dwarves' silhouettes and a kid's ghost playing with them at night and of dead people. I'd let her tell her own stories, but let me start with two of hers.
It's always the little things, the unexplained little things, and the build up of little coincidences that makes the unseen real to us beyond any shadow of doubt, yet remains unprovable to others. For the unobservant, it might not have been scary. In fact, it might not have been noticed at all. Unfortunately for her, she wasn't one of them.
This occurred in the middle of the day in Palma Hall (as you know, that century-old building we still call AS). It is by no means creepy when the sun is up; it is well-lighted and well-ventilated by its open corridor and high ceilings. She was walking down the stairs from the 3rd floor (Edit: It’s actually the 4th floor), when she realizes that there's another step behind her. Now this was not unusual, for someone else to be there. But when she stopped, it also stopped. Then she walked again; Tick, tack, tack. Tick, tack, tack. Tick, tack, tack. She's sure that there is a third step, right behind her. Someone must be messing around with her. But when she looked around, there was no one.
She runs down the remaining flight of stairs.
I've walked up and down the same flight of stairs a few hundred times and I've never heard my footsteps echo in any of them. Besides, she said that the time delay was too long and the sound too distinct for it to be an echo.
If I remember correctly, she said she wasn't wearing a backpack. The extra step was gone when she reached the bottom.

2. [2, M.Y.] Early in the morning, around 6:00 AM if I remember correctly, she goes to the third floor GE wing of Melchor Hall (Engineering, which we fondly call Engg). She was about to enter the CR when she heard a sob. Not wanting to intrude, she stood in the corridor right outside the CR, waiting for the girl to finish. Shortly after, she heard a flush and thought that this crying girl was about to leave. But after 5 minutes, she still hasn't seen anyone leave the CR, so she got impatient and decided to enter and check it out and do whatever it is girls do in the CR. As she approached the open door, she saw a puddle on the floor from one of the cubicles, with wet footsteps leading from it towards the door and vanishing outside.
I can't remember if she actually went in after seeing that, though I recall her saying that she did. (It takes a lot to scare her)
Whatever it is girls do in the CR is more of a mystery to me.

3. [3, Engg night guard] This I heard from C., who heard it from his friend, who heard it from the guard. I can't remember if he was there when the guard told the story.
The guard was doing his usual night rounds, when a group of students (around 20+) came up to him and asked for a room in the third floor GE wing to be opened (yeah, that place again). However, he was not informed of this class, so he began to get suspicious. He led them near the stairs, right in the middle of the lobby where there was a CCTV camera so that these guys would be identified if anything happens. Then, he proceeds to go up and open the room they requested. The students enter and the lights turn on and he hears the noise of chairs being pulled around. He leaves and continues his round. It doesn't really take long to walk around the whole building; so he was a bit surprised that the class had already ended when he went back to see the room; the doors were locked and the lights were closed.
The next day he was on duty (from what I can remember, it wasn't immediately after), he checked the CCTV footage. He was talking alone in the middle of the lobby.
Sadly, I don't have the CCTV footage. It's an old story, so maybe they don't have it anymore. Or maybe it's one of those myths, although I have not heard of any variation of this inside UP.

4. [2, Sir J.] Let's move somewhere closer to home. Second floor, where the Department of Chemical Engineering used to stay just 2 years ago.
At random nights, sometimes there would be a little girl seen running barefoot along the corridor. Now there's nothing scary about that, except that sometimes they would also see little muddy footprints along the corridor that begin out of nowhere and end just as suddenly.
And in room 209 (Edit: It’s actually room 207) if I remember correctly, sometimes there would be a sound from the window saying "pst! pst!" The window is closed all the time. The profs just got used to it and ignore it, but it still gets creepy when you're alone.
In the same room, sometimes there would be a single, muddy, footprint (left foot) (Edit, it’s actually the right foot, picture posted by sir below) in the middle of the room. Once, they left the room for just a few minutes and when they came back, it was there.
They have pictures of the little footprints. I personally saw the picture of the dirty footprint on sir J.'s phone.
I'm going to have to ask the new occupants of that room if ever they notice something.

5. [2] This one is from my grandmother (who we call nanay). We've all been told that children are more often able to 'see,' and that this ability normally vanishes as one grows older.
It was one stormy noon at home (before it was renovated), and the skies were dark and the cold wind blew outside the house. All the lights were turned off because no one's really using them. There was only the faint scattered white light of the sun to give the objects outlines and shapes and shadows. I was a baby back then (or maybe my brother, she couldn't really remember which one of us), and was alone with nanay at home. Everything was quiet when I suddenly said,
"Nanay, tao. Nanay, tao," while pointing at nowhere.

6. [1] Independent corroboration is perhaps the most convincing of proofs, when cold hard evidence simply does not exist. That's why witnesses in court are treated as evidence.
This was in first year high school, during star gazing. We were staying at the field, and along the length of the oval was the Science and Humanities Building. Two whole classes saw a 'white lady' standing in the music room. We even pointed flashlights at it. I saw it from afar too, but didn't take a look at it with the telescope. It wasn't actually a lady; I mean, it had no face or anything. It's just a white blob of a humanoid figure standing(?) by the window. It was gone shortly after.
I remember that there were some who wanted to go ghost hunting, but it was either they tailed out or weren't allowed. Probably the latter.
The next week we asked our music teacher if she had seen ghosts in that room, and she said she hadn't. But apparently, a lot of other batches in the past tell her that.

7. [2, Y.C.] Just this July the barkada decided to hike Mt. Batulao. We had a sleepover at N's house the night prior so we could leave early in the morning. It was raining during the night and thunder was more than just audible.
Y. woke up for some reason, and realized that his left hand was stretched... and floating as if it was resting on something. He pulled it and crossed his arms and just ignored it and tried to sleep. His arms fell off his chest as if it was shoved. He felt the banig (sorry conyo, 'mat' just doesn't cut it) move to the right of his head and then to the left, as if someone just stepped on it.
He forced himself to sleep after that.
My guess is, his left hand went numb, that's why it felt floating and moved involuntarily. I'm not sure about the 'ghost steps.'
As far as I can remember that's how he described them.
I was sleeping on the banig immediately to his right. I didn't feel anything.
There's nothing under the bed where his hand could have rested. I was the first to sleep, so I know there was nothing there. If there was anything, I didn't see it.
N. says he never experienced anything, even after that.
Nope, it wasn't me.

8. [2, A.C.] My friend was on duty at UP Vanguard and had to stay the night alone. On the very first night, the windows and the doors of his room were opening and shutting noisily.
There was no wind.
It was scary at first, but by the third night, he was just annoyed that he couldn't sleep because of the noise.

9. [1] This isn't really a first-hand paranormal experience but it's something rather mysterious. Once during August, it was raining hard after 5 PM. I went to the Vanguard rooftop to train early. Now on the way up was a small iron gate, which was more like a metal mesh/fence that you could swing open.
When I looked again, it was closed. It's impossible for the wind to have blown it, since it's a makeshift metal mesh (I don't know the mesh number but I'm sure it's less than 1). I didn't see anyone come in or out.
It's a very minor detail, but it's always the unexplainable little things that get to our nerves.
To be fair, I was making a lot of noise hitting the rubber tires so it is entirely possible I might not have noticed at all. In fact, I've seen someone use the CR once without me noticing their arrival. But why he closed the gate this time, I don't know.
Perhaps it's just by habit. Yep, probably just that.

Feel free to share yours. They are more than welcome. :)

 Comments from FB:
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[ Sir J.]: Pwede na ba ito? (Will this do?)
[Me]: thank you siirr :)) my bad, right foot pala hahaha :))
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[M.Y.]: For the record, hindi ako Bracket A++. HAHA One side note, galing akong 4th Floor ng AS. :))
[Me]: HAHA andaming distorted sa details kooo =)))) sad.

Pero sure ako na bracket A++ ka :)))
 
[M.Y.]: PS. There this one time after 106 exam (Hi Sir J.! Haha) sa MH215 kami nagexam (comp lab) tapos maaga ako natapos. Mag 9 na nun so lumabas ako tapos naghintay ako sa labas ng room sa hallway. Oddly enough may silhouette akong naaninag sa may lobby. Kala ko guard haha kaso mayamaya may naririnig akong tumatakbo from lobby to hallway. Papalapit na pero wala akong nakikita. Haha. Bubuksan ko na sana uli yung pinto para pumasok sa room at doon maghintay, buti nalang may papalabas na rin kaya sumabay nako. And all this time, si Manong guard, nasa likod ng engg the whole time. Haha saya diba T__T
Directly translated: There [is] this one time after 106 exam (Hi Sir J.! Haha). We were taking the exam in MH 215 (Computer lab), and I finished early. It was around 9 PM so I went out and waited outside the room along the hallway. Oddly enough, I can see a silhouette in my peripheral vision. I thought it was the guard but later I heard something running from the lobby to the hallway. It was getting closer but I couldn't see anyone. Haha. I was about to open the door again to enter the room and wait there, but good thing someone was just getting out and I went with them. All this time, the guard was at the back of the building. Haha fun isn't it T_T
[Me]: gaano kalaki yung silhouette? :)) 
Directly translated: How big is the silhouette?
 She didn't reply. Don't worry she's still alive. I'll ask her personally next time. 

Monday, November 2, 2015

November 2, 2015 Monday

Today there is no 198 class! I asked about that last week on behalf of A- and I totally forgot.

So I just went to the lib and studied. Good thing A- asked for a study buddy too. So I was not alone.

Anyway, I went home with ate C- and we tried the terminal at Technohub. It's surprisingly okay: fills fast enough, and the fx passes through SM and Almar.

Anyway, she told me three interesting things (amongs t others):
1. Chismis about me!!! It's very rare to find that. So there was this upper batch who had heard of our group and commented on each. Apparently, Katarina's fame spread far and wide. And I see now why the star cried. Most importantly though, I was a snob daw and nagmamata ng tao. I know where the first one comes from, since I sometimes (or oftentimes, rather) get lost in my thoughts and/or just don't feel like talking. I have an introverted side, you should remember that. Sometimes I just don't have anything to say. The second though, I'm not sure where that comes from. I'm guessing it's partially due to my introverted side too. I mean, it was more obvious back then. Anyway, it's not like that person knew me so it doesn't really matter. It's always just interesting to know how other people see you.

2. Ghost story in pisay! It was blackout in the storage room (ma'am lhen's, not sure if I got the spelling correct). They were scaring each other inside that windowless room with a single candle. She saw a bloodied male student hanging by the closet with microscopes.

She blew the candle because they were trying to scare each other and everyone ran out of the room. She overheard two other friends saying, "Did you see that?" She asked what, and they said the same description, except it was standing near them.

3. What would it take for her to forgive him? Haha. Of course, she had no ready answer. Though she settled witha sincere apology, or in my words, repentance.

Yeah, totally unconnected. But it was in the flow of conversation.

And I played one game with my brother and we lost. But I'm getting the hang of kalista, despite the faulty mouse.

Sunday, November 1, 2015

November 1 2015 Sunday

Just a few more days until the board exam! I still don't feel it.

I finally compiled the ghost stories that I have! I'll post it here too, but I have it on facebook already. And it's more interactive there. Although people don't seem all that interested in ghost stories. It's really a shame, since I documented it well too. And I presented the facts as is, no drama or anything. It's more of a mental mystery thing than a creepy story.

Oh yeah, I activated facebook. A lot has been going on apparently and it took me half a day to catch up. It's nice talking to people.

I'll finish perry's on tuesday xD