July 3 2015 Friday

I'll post about Mt Batulao tomorrow.

Today is the buffet! I didn't eat much. But I did taste what I like and vice versa.

Actually I knew there was gospel sharing and I wanted her to be there. That's why I agreed to a nlbig celebration. That's why I invited a lot of people. Just like Sbarro. So I'm really happy that she was there. It was worth it.

She wouldn't have come any other way. She doesn't even like talking to me.

I learned from C- her point of view. I knew that already but at least I know now for sure. I know she wouldn't understand. It's really hard to explain that it's more than just religion. Anyone can be converted, anyone can pray, anyone can parrot doctrine and slogans and taglines, but there's a really big difference. And it's nothing short of life purpose.

But that's okay. It might be really hard, but salvation is of God. So I'll just pray and continue to minister to her in whatever way I can and draw her near.

Not to say that other friends are not important. I would also have shared the gospel one way or another.

Using verses is very unattractive to people during evangelism, some might say, but it's the power of God unto salvation. It would be stupid not to. I really thank Pastor.

Anyway Dad's video was HAHAHA I mean the piano thing is something that only we know. I don't show other people that.

Not sure how to react with OTP and all. I want to see our pictures haha.

It's happy to see a lot of friends in one place but I really want to talk to everyone but I can't. Really sad. How ironic.

Anyway 'tis a good night. Misson accomplished. I pray that God will reveal Himself to her. Also to my friends of course, esp the star. I've been praying for FETS lab too.

June 30 2015 Tuesday

Today nothing much happened.

Mom was still a little bit annoyed in the morning but she was fine in the afternoon.

I went to UP to fix the univ clearance. I also tried to get the forms but they still weren't available.

I went to SM to recopy my gradpics but I forgot to claim them when I went home.

I went to Nate's house with David and Carla and Esge to plan for Mt. Batulao on Thursday. I'll be having overnight tomorrow and skip first day of review on Thursday.

We talked a bit :) she also posted her photos and she's so pretty when she smiles (she still is even when she doesn't). Of course we still don't talk like before but it's an improvement. I don't have plans so I'll just do what I always do.

June 29 2015 Monday

Today is college grad day!!! I wrote a lot of dedics in the morning and I didn't even play LoL. I ran out of copies and I forgot to write for grenny, cy, and marx.

But I want to go back to yesterday (again). Yesterday was univ grad.

And I got a picture with her. It's my only picture with her, actually. And she looks so damn pretty.

Since I didn't attend the rehearsal (I forgot to), I was more or less lost so I just went with the flow. Also Christy was nice to brief me.

I didn't take a picture with Tiffany Uy because I don't know her. Yeah she's amazing but I've never really been a fan of anyone.

I really liked the cheers. First when I walked down the processional and second when I stepped up on stage. It made me feel I'm not alone, even though I'm not really identified with any single group. I have friends :) and really good ones at that. And I'm really happy about that. It might be a late realization, but that's better than never.

The Engg Wave was amazing!!! I saw it live from the top. I was clapping and cheering like a seal and I don't care.

Mama was such a killjoy being so nitpicky with everything like where to put bottles and talking and umbrellas and rallies. She's terrible at gatherings.

Actually dad got mad at her during the sunflower pictures (I was pretty annoyed myself by then, too) and we just let her do what she wanted and she realized that we were mad but she's so bad at apologizing. She can't apologize. It's a very sad thing for a human being to not be able to apologize.

The UP Madrigal Singers are amazing!! Iisang bangka gave me goosebumps and that gary granada song was really good too.

Singing UP Naming Mahal is so epic.

I imagine every year, every batch thinks they're so special. We are but another one of them.



So today is college grad. We left home at 9 AM and arrived 12:30 PM. And there were so many people.

But a lot of them left after their part was done. Especially the ones behind us summas.

The program lasted more than 5 hours. I mostly just talked to Christy and David. They were fun to talk to.

Aaron's turn was so epic. 1.4505. So. Epic. Everyone was cheering because of the heartache. Also he had two rodillas or whatever with him.

After the ceremony we left almost immediately. I only managed to take some group pictures and a solo with Tracy. She's really pretty. Oh and there was kevin and ate angelica and arianne too.

The ones I took earlier with sir Jimievard and the star and elise count too.

I wanted to have a picture with her again.

I wasn't able to take pictures with the triple M friends like trixy and badette and coleen and ian.

I didn't take a picture with Christy. I don't know why. But I did invite her to July 3.

Yeah I wanted pictures for this event even though I normally don't because I want memories. I know myself and I forget a lot of things but I want to remember this, especially the people.

But reality is you can't keep everyone. I can't keep everyone. I can't even keep her.

And that's sad. But I think like this because I'm tired already so I'll take a nap in the FX now.


Okay so when I woke up we were right in front of UP, just past Philcoa. This driver is terribly slow. UVW 823 iirc. It has one bright light that flickers whenever the doors close. His eyes are practically unusable and he can't go past 20 kph. He only moves in bursts, doesn't have any judgment when to switch lanes, insists on sticking to the right side of the street. And I thought that anything could be better than this.

Boy, was I wrong. So we got off early at dahlia and then dad decided to ride a jeep (I recommended fx almar). The jeep was just as slow and it stopped on every possible place to get passengers even though it's more than 80% full in capacity (as a rule of thumb you shouldn't be above that if not in rush hour, and if not coming from a terminal). And to add fuel to the flames, it had to refuel. And mom and dad are fighting again because of this uncontrollabke circumstance that happens every so often to me.

Yeah, I'm a pro commuter. I have the discernment which to ride where, and I have the patience when I make mistakes. Mom is not as pro.

June 26 2015 Friday

Today I got Plat V! So I won two out of five games in the series and lost one. The next game, we had a Bard player who's legit good. We lost though, but that's okay because it was a really really good game. One of those rare games that you don't know who's going to win.

And then the last game of the series, we had two adrs! I really thought I was (we were, when you play LoL you should always think in teams) gonna lose but surprisingly the enemy team was more scattered than we are. We won all the lanes though so it wasn't that much of a surprise by the end.

And then I went to dinner! It was boring. The place was small and it was outdoors and it was hot. But it was fine because I at least gave her my gradpic. And there I told her. Yes, I told her. Que sera, sera. No regrets, before I graduate.

Also I got senyora and the star's gradpics!

I hope she goes on July 3.

June 25 2015 Thursday

Today is very tiring. And I'm incompletely happy.

Anyway let's go back to yesterday first. I went to join the Filipino Martial Arts training but master J- said I should watch first before I enter. So I watched and I learned a lot of things from watching like the payong, the mano-a-mano basics (and a simple application), some footwork, and some principles in espada y daga. But I can't do the espada y daga yet. At most I can copy almost all their single-stick moves. But I need to learn it with muscle memory. Also I couldn't memorize the thirteen strikes after seeing it thrice already.

So today a lot of things happened on Facebook. Mostly just chatted with people saying congratulations. I'm happy about that, but also tired. I'm sad that she still doesn't want to talk to me.

June 23 2015 Tuesday

Clearance is almost done! Ma'am H- has signed already, and now all we need is to wait for Doc C- and order a Gas-tight syringe for ma'am E-.

I met C- again in Engg. But I didn't talk to her. I don't landi everyone I meet. Really. Although I do find her attractive, even when I first met her along one of Engg's long corridors. I find a lot of people attractive anyway.

I'm inviting people to dinner! I ask if they're free on this certain date and I invite them. And it's amusing how they all assume it's free. I never said it. I'd like to think that they're going there to have dinner with me. Especially since I probably won't be talking to all of them. When I think that they're going there for the food I feel sad. Sigh. I guess that's how the king felt in one of Jesus' parables. Except I'm not a king.

I'll be making a facebook event soon. Probably tomorrow.

Also SM Fairview is a bit far for most people. It's slightly sad that the princess won't come. Although we talked a little! haha

Anyway what's really sad is she's unsure. She's the one I really want to go there. Half the reason I agreed to my parents. She's always like that though, so no surprise. I just want her to enjoy the night. Not like I'm gonna do anything. I can't, even if I wanted to. I'm still praying for a miracle.

June 22 2015 Monday

Today is a very interesting day. We had a summa photoshoot so I met almost all 29 of them. I can't remember all of them though, but I'd probably know them by face. I was listening and people-watching mostly.

P- was still pretty as usual. Her quietness makes her so mysterious and attractive. There were bibos there too (C- from BAA I think and Y- from BS Psych) so it was more or less lively. Also there's Ca-r from CS, Em- and J- from somewhere I forgot (they're not together), B- from BA Psych, and Ca-a from Bio, I think. I also met Ch- there. I always see her when I'm in engg, esp. during ES days. I was surprised when she came.

I also tasted chokiss for free! There was the white chocolate flavor, and then the mocha I think. I wasn't able to taste the one with the small bit of mango. Both were good though. Not to sweet, not to soft.

Also finally some concrete progress with clearance! I paid the univ grad fee and also the lab waste disposal and then had ma'am julie's signature. When I finish filtering the GO-water we would have FETS signature and finally ma'am RdL's. However, ma'am Emma's still remains elusive due to our need to order a gas-tight syringe.

Yesterday, nothing much happened. Except maybe we talked to the mother and daughter Batalla. It's amazing and interesting how the mother is suffering from that but still manages to be so cheerful.