June 12 2015 Friday
The morning before we left Caliraya my dad and I biked together on a parallel bike. It was a good few kilometers but I'm sad that we couldn't reach the end because the bike isn't really maintained that well (it's the oil I think, I don't know much about bikes). It was too hard that we needed to stop and rest under a tree midway. And the birds there were flying so near us. And then we went back to the hotel and wanted to fish but it was in the dam and it was too far away. So we just stayed in the hotel and lounged in the windy balcony staring at the portion of the golf course and far off to the plains and mountain ranges beyond. But mostly I was staring at the clouds and the blue sky. It was really beautiful.
And my dad and I talked a lot there, but mostly he did the talking. He asked some things in the first few minutes and I thought that maybe it might veer towards lovelife which is very complicated right now (mostly just me) but then the topic stayed there about the future and church and spiritual things and things he wanted to do in the past and things he wants for me and things like that. And I liked that because we haven't talked about it for so long. And I understand a lot more now, even though what he said was just the same things years ago. Good thing it didn't go towards lovelife because I'm still teetering in that aspect (although more stable now).
One important thing for me though was that part when I said that I didn't want to do ministry anymore because I didn't do ministry back then when I was a kid. It's one of my frustrations, because I wanted to serve the church when I was a kid (in retrospect it was a pride-tainted desire) and my mother wouldn't let me because she wanted me to study. And one day I just gave it up, the desire to serve in the church. Then my dad said, that it doesn't matter now what the decision was back then because they're not stopping me anymore. And this, this was what struck me - that it was my ministry back then to obey. Actually I cried in a jeepney long ago about obeying my parents (it was a PIChE dinner and kuya jape gave a blow out in Steveston's and they gave me blue pizza the next time we met which I liked). I really struggled about that but it was clear as day in the Bible that Children, obey your parents for this is pleasing in the sight of God. (Although yes Jesus did say that if you don't hate your father or mother then you are not worthy to become my disciple. That's a long discussion but the bottomline is obey as long as it's not sin. Even if it's unreasonable). And that was my ministry then, to obey my parents and to be a student. And to say that being a student is not a valid ministry is not understanding God at all.
But still I don't know what to do in church ministry so I dont think I'll be doing that any time soon. Although I do have the plan in mind, which I told dad. The Lord will direct my steps.
Oh and the breakfast at caliraya is nothing exceptional but their vinegar is really good, even better than sukang paombong. It has the perfect sting of mild in my opinion. Or maybe that's just for bangus.
And then we went home and it was a very very long trip. When we got home we pretty much returned to normal life.
I was waiting for my groupmates to text me about the result but they didn't so I figured it was a no.
June 13 2015 Saturday
I think this was when CASAA burned. I think this is also when we went with sir J- to SM Fairview (where we met at food court and then had merienda at Zark's and sir would take bill it on him as usual) and Fairview Terraces. It was my first time at Zark's and I'm really interested now since their burgers are so big.
And then we went to Fairview Terraces to go to Timezone and play and the Timezone at the ground floor was really small so we went up to the fourth floor but the Timezone wasn't really big there too either and all the karaoke booths were filled so sir J- and Rojen danced and Aaron Tekkened and UMVC'd as usual and I didn't play a lot as usual because I just enjoy accompanying people and watch them play and have fun. Although I did like the air hockey and the shooting game. Oh and the pang pang paradise too.
Then we had dinner at Seafood Island (one of my dream restaurants because I like seafood) and we ordered boodle fight and sir treated us to another 1k worth of food. The food was really good and it was enough for all of us. There was squid and shrimp and tahong I think and scallops and crab and yellow rice and daing. Of course the pork part I don't know. I think there was barbecue. Anyway I really enjoyed that. And then we talked about a lot of things and I heard about sir J-'s love life and sir J-y's love life with some IE prof (when I asked him he said it wasn't true). And a lot more things which I probably won't remember. That's me. Some memories don't linger, but my feelings do. (except when i'm in acads mode)
June 14 2015 Sunday - June 15 2015 Monday
Nothing much except I tried to make a speech to no avail. I just lounged around and tried to think of something really cool and did nothing. In the end I decided to just be straightforward and say what I want to say. It was a really boring speech but at least I said something. Of course it included the gospel.
I think it was also around this time that I was studying Waray with Tracy. Ah no, I stopped studying Waray during this time because I was lounging around waiting for inspiration.
June 16 2015 Tuesday
Also during the whole week I was also doing some lab clearance.
June 17 2015 Wednesday
Today is auditions day. I did some lab clearance and cleaning in the afternoon before that and I helped Ran clean some of their stuff in the lab.
Today I met a very interesting person. P-. She's a fellow summa from film (the only one in their department). She's quite the eyecatcher. In fact, the moment I entered abelardo hall I already noticed her. She sat there alone in her lovely black dress reading her script quietly. But I didn't really take a good look at her until when we talked because I'm trying to spare myself the temptations. Never would I have dreamed that she'd talk to me first. But I guess she was bored so she did and we made some small talk about where we live and siblings and parents and reactions and speech preparation and future plans. It's really nice to talk to her because I know she'd understand.
Anyway there were only 13 of us and 9 of them were from film and I think there was one from BAA and I don't know the other one.
And tonight I talked to her and I'm very happy. Of course she was still giving short replies but it's better now. By a little. And she changed her profile picture to her gradpic which is very very pretty and cute. The smile is just heartmelting. I don't see why it's not getting the number of likes it should get.
June 18 2015 Thursday
I did some clearance and cleaning here. Oh and I got the grad ring. I cleaned it using FETS ultrasonic cleaner. When I wear it I feel powerful.
The sablay is nice since it's handwoven. Seems legit.
I also talked to Marion and she said a lot of her rants. During that, Monique came and I wanted to talk to her too but my attention was focused so I didn't talk to her.
June 19 2015 Friday
It's gradbash day and I did some clearance in the morning. I filtered all the GO-waste in the big container (I still have the small container left) and also asked for a billing of our sulfide/sulfite wastes. We also slightly celebrated ma'am's birthday.
Although the cake was not too sweet (just the right sweetness because you can feel the real cocoa in your tongue), it's incredibly dense and heavy on the stomach such that I only ate one and a half slices.
Then I went to Ministop and met with astro and nate and esge to go to gradbash. When we went there I wore my coat but I didn't know how to tie a tie because I deleted the phone app. Anyway the place is very big and we sat at the corner. The food isn't generous but we managed to sneak a second round. Also the viand was made of pork so I couldn't eat them except for the fish fillet with something sauce. The fish fillet is good, although the butter and cream in the sauce stands out too much.
We left at around 10:00 PM and went to Astro's house. But before we left I took a picture with Sarah. Hahaha. But I didn't take pictures with lots of people like what the others did because I want to spend time with my friends. We haven't seen and hung around with each other in so long and it's worth it. We picked up Carla, Isma, and Cudia in Ever McDo.
Izo was there already (he said it was awkward, and that he was having dinner with Astro's mom).
Cudia fell asleep early, and so did Izo (although that's already around 12mn I think). We watched The Ring (japanese w/ subtitles) and Daily Life of High School Boys and a star cinema film I think. Can't remember, but it was Erich Gonzales and the male lead was supposed to be some thai person. We also watched Confessions and it was very intense. I wish we watched it earlier though, since I fell asleep in the middle of the film.
Anyway when I asked Tracy (evening of the next day actually) what we missed in the party, she said it was boring except for the games. And these games were sensual so it was a good thing I wasn't there (I can't handle those, remember?). So apparently there was this pair of dice, one with actions (kiss, lick, suck) and the other with body parts (lips, chest, neck, chin, etc etc). I asked what happened then retracted my question because I don't want to imagine it.
Thank God that I can do this now. But it's really sad how people find those things entertaining. They probably think as long as they're not doing the thing then it's alright. But Christ would say "whoever looks at a woman to lust for her has already committed adultery with her in his heart." What more if we play with the fire of sensuality?
Also thank God we left early. I don't think I can walk away from that unscarred. Maybe I can't even walk away from that, knowing myself.
June 20, 2015 Today
Today is my favorite day. So we woke up and had breakfast. And over breakfast we shared the gospel to the barkada. This is a dream come true! I've been praying for this for so long now. And I'm glad God allowed me to be there. I'm really happy. Now I'm sure God hears my prayers. Including my prayer for her to be saved. Of course I also pray for my other friends like the star and Tracy and even L- but I pray for her the most.
Well of course Isma began with his testimony, aka how he met Christ. How he almost killed a man. It was the biggest opportunity since he quit alcohol and smoking and drugs and sex. Then Izo went and asked questions (all the while being Izo) and Carla did too. In the end we shared the whole gospel and more. We met at a dead end because they didn't want to accept God's Sovereignty and Man's Responsibility.
It's sad though that Aaron and David and Yeyel weren't there. Anyway God is Sovereign and I'm sure they will hear about it too. I will keep on praying.
As for me, my testimony isn't that splendid. Haha. But I have faith that God will change me to the end. It is He who began this work in me, and He will surely carry it to completion.
That's most of it actually. Very short but easily one of my most favorite days.
When I went home I'm still full from breakfast in Astro's house (rice and spam and corned beef and sardines). So I just ate pasta in Manang's Chicken.
When I went home I fell asleep while grooming. I also played one game in LoL with Isma that night and it was a splendid Diana mid (vs Cassiopeia). K/D/A was 22/5/15 and I managed to complete my bruiser Diana build (RoA Nashor Athene Zhonya) for the first time. I also took the 2 120-Ap items rabaddon and luden's so my AP reached 909 (no boots at end game, yes). Anyway my Diana is now champion mastery 5 (Destroyer Diana) and that's really cool.
It took me quite a while to write this. I also want to write something about God's Sovereignty and exposition in Romans 9.
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