August 10, 2016 Wednesday

Today we had firefighting training!!

I wanted to be second in line because I thought I was strong enough to carry the hose. But apparently I wasn't. I am reminded of my own weaknesses.

Anyhow, when NVB took the third man it became SO much easier. I wonder if it's just that noisy tomboy not pushing hard enough.

I really don't like that girl. She's so full of herself. Full of comments too. And then there were these two supposedly from safety that keep on giving me 'tips' not looking that I'M ACTUALLY DOING THEM. And their tips aren't really helpful. The hold that they teach us was so much less efficient than the first one that I learned.

And there was this Nat Geo film shooting thing that took up our time. It's fine though, since I've experienced firefighting already.

There was this girl that looks so much like M-. I remembered again that I really like M- if not for the fact that she's not... that.

P- keeps on talking to me and I don't want that because bro code. But I can't push her away either given her circumstances. In any case I'll try L-'s suggestion.

S- never replies. What happened to friendship tho

I like my work. There are no deadlines.

I have good friends. I must accept that along with the fact that my activities are solo activities. I know deep inside that I just want to be the center of a group of friends. But that's not how it works. And that is full of pride.


I'm starting to learn Hebrew from Duolingo. I'm going to drop learning Gaeilge.

I like E-. She's so cute! And very efficient. Idk I like her a bit. I need to consolidate my belief in love and romance.

I am going to re-establish this! And also my daily reading