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Friday, January 29, 2016
The Sovereignty of God
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Saturday, January 23, 2016
January 23, 2015 Saturday
Today I remembered something! I forgot that there's YBF today and also have not informed david of feb 1. I need to fix my scheduling. It's a shame really.
Well I remembered that I liked S- even before in elem especially in grade 6 and I texted her when I got a phone and ended up using all the initial load (apparently I had the wrong number). It all faded away soon, childish things. Haha. And then I remembered that I want someone who is not proud/can listen. I still haven't checked my old posts.
I played LoL and lost because of PLDC.
I am going to start a reading plan. I also need to fix my life.
Friday, January 22, 2016
January 22, 2015 Friday
I was thinking about it this morning and I realized it's not a daisy. It's a sampaguita (which, by the way, is my favorite flower: simple and fragrant and lovely). I realized I didn't know what a daisy is. I'll look it up when I have internet.
And then I think Chan took home my charger accidentally. I had to charge my phone on Don's laptop via USB cable. I asked later this night and she doesn't have it. I'm having mild trust issues again so I won't be lending stuff to anyone for now. (Along with the usual symptoms of trust issues)
Sir Kermit graciously offered us a ride to the refinery this morning and we arrived at the gate at 7:00 and waited until 7:15 to be allowed entry (apparently the guards weren't informed) and talked to the SLU boys a little and bought some food (I bought spanish sardines and egg. There was no meat loaf) (yes I know some say meat loaf is pork but fried meat loaf is a different story. I like the accidentally overfried thin slices of meat loaf of nanay)
And right now it's 8:00 and I brushed my teeth and finished eating already and nothing has happened yet.
I recycled my clothes from wednesday (even my brief from yesterday) (I didn't have a choice, okay?).
I spent all 2k of my money. Don owes me 2^7 pesos.
Interview with VP was uhh more of an orientation. He's saying it's more than just a job it's a career mostly. Well that's a good perspective. But I should look at it as: "wherever God planted me, there I will do my best and bloom"
I'm craving for intimacyyyy. That's why I'm writing again here, to let some steam off. I think that's why I'm seriously considering panliligaw right now. It's not bad though, but if I get sidetracked (again) because of this then I won't continue. All the seeds of pride and lust in my daydreams are creeping in again, and I don't want that.
I was about to talk to the star but she got me first haha. I also gave her good advice re:life purpose. I hope she really thinks about it, and realize what 'Lord' in Lord Jesus really means.
I want to reevaluate the things in panliligaw, since I'm almost ready. I don't offer sacrifices that cost me nothing, but I'll be employed soon, so I'd have the means of doing that.
Criteria!
1. Follower of Christ ( Non-negotiable)
2. Maalaga/responsible
3. Maganda
4. Nag-iisip/natututo
5. Partner-material
I'd have to look at my previous posts too. Is #3 bad? I've been thinking about it and I think it's not. I mean, I can now appreciate almost all kinds of beauty. Beauty is 70% effort and 30% preference. Haha. Idk. I'll still think about it. I mean, I have friends who just don't like magpaganda. And they're great people. Also excessive obssessive regimens are a no-no.
But I also just want a lovely life. Song of Solomon agrees, 'no?
#5 is a bit vague but you know I want to do something!! That community thing. And I want someone who'd help me. I'm still planning it out.
But most importantly have to keep myself grounded on God and His Word. If God ever gives me direction then go I will. But as of now I'll be moving according to my plans.
Of course this means I'll need to put extra effort on how I look. I'll work on it when I get money. Braces are so expensive!! Also perfume and fashion and haircuts and also special attention to my chin and body pimples. Hahahaha. I want to be presentable to my wife too!!!
Future wife. I'm getting ahead of myself.
January 21, 2015 Thursday
Today I am terribly annoyed. I have been waiting for the interview with VP FPY since yesterday wednesday morning. The company cannot schedule properly. On the first day only five girls and five boys were interviewed (those who were also given access to the guesthouse except Harry) (us from manila weren't given access to the guesthouse). We did absolutely nothing that day (except x-ray pala which took like 10 minutes). And then today we also almost did nothing again, because they didn't even want to do blood extraction of the guys. I mean wtf man!! What's an extra few minutes of extracting blood? It didn't even take long. And then right now we weren't allowed entry to the housing facility even just to hangout (the guards didn't even try to verify our identities. bullshit.) (Limay is in a blackout and our apartment has no electricity. It's 8 PM and we have nothing to do and we probably can't sleep. The apartment looks like a haunted house but I didn't see anything)
On the outside I might seem cool with it but I don't like what I 'm seeing right now and I think I deserve better as a human being. I don't think I'll stay long.
Perhaps the only saving grace that I have is that I spent some time with S- Tuesday afternoon. I got a look inside GN Powerplant and it's a very lovely place with a clean clear pool and a view overlooking Corregidor and a fish pond (and at least I know where to go to church when I'm here on Sundays). S- is also now a very fine woman haha. She's very responsible and accomodating and kind (what else'd you expect from a nurse though) Also very lovely, like a daisy. Apparently she's quite popular there (not a surprise). Her voice even on the phone is cool and relaxing. I'm not sure actually how to describe it but that's the effect on me. Much like D-'s voice. Maybe a bit more talkative haha. The most interesting thing maybe was that she was so focused telling her stories about patients in mental that she couldn't hear her sister calling her. Idk why but I find that interesting. Recalling that now makes me feel a lot better. It's also really good to reminisce our days together in elementary.
Don and I decided to walk to and fro from villa leonor to BRC and the first was a success (took us 30 minutes). And then we chatted with them from 9:00 until 10:30 and it was fun. Then we went back walking and met one rabid dog which we successfully ignored. But the road downward from NGCP we encountered 3 rabid dogs and decided to turn back and wait for a trike. Unfortunately all were full. Then this guy on an owner asked us and I asked if we can hitch a ride to villa leonor and he gave us a go. He was drunk and I was a bit scared to be honest especially when he moved past our house but thankfully he slowed down and turned back and dropped us off properly. He also works in Petron as a skilled worker and he had a drink with his friends and he owns this lumber house in front of NGCP. And his name is kuya Junjun (or jungjung). And I think I want to pay him a visit and return the favor one of these days.
If I get married here in Bataan then I don't mind staying. (Not necessarily to S. It's just a general statement.) Given that the company treats me better and that God does not call me somewhere else.
Thursday, December 31, 2015
December 31, 2015 Thursday
But actually I got sick with severe incessant coughing on Christmas Eve and went to the hospital for a check up on December 25. Also, I had the mood swing of "friendship issues" during that time so I didn't greet a lot of people (I tried but not many replied enthusiastically anyway, and I gave up midway). Though mostly I've been going with daily life (Duolingo, LoL, piano, Morse Code, house chores, etc.)
There was oathtaking a on December 17 was it? Nothing much to say about that.
I also did a solo arrangement of In Christ Alone by Keith Getty on piano!! I finished my first draft yesterday and I tried playing it earlier, and I have still a few things to polish. But I'll post it here. Anyway since I'm done with that, I'll do LPG detector using Arduino. I bought one for my brother a while back but apparently he's over it already. He's busy with learning the Elvish Language after reading the Silmarillon, The Hobbit and the Lord of the Rings trilogy. Oh and he marathoned the uncut version of the movie recently.
Quizas trato decir más en Español aquí, para practirar hasta perfección :)) no estoy seguro si hago ahora es correcto, por tanto haga el favor de avisarme si busca cualquier errores xD Casi lo hice esta frase sin Google Translate!
Tambien yo he sido hablar con la luna del verano recentiemente. Parece que ella ha realizado lo que yo quería significar anterior. Comenzo creer que la me gusta en realidad, pero todavia necesito verificar eso.
Anyway the reason I'm writing now is because another mood swing has been triggered yesternight. I was supposed to meet some friends, but they didn't show up. I doubted if they conspired to leave me. I still do. Though I try to convince myself that it's not like that. In all likelihood, it's not.
EDIT: It's done!! Here it is :)
The MP3 file:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/bq0dbyr5viur1um/In_Christ_Alone_expanded.mp3?dl=0
The PDF:
https://www.dropbox.com/s/6m5nxvl1dkq31xy/In_Christ_Alone_expanded.pdf?dl=0
Here's the bare bones of the melody
https://www.dropbox.com/s/kiqhr180kzmpqlb/In_Christ_Alone.pdf?dl=0
Anyway I also took some personality tests, and here are the results
Personality Disorder Test Results
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Advanced Big 45 Personality Test Results
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| Factor | low score | high score | |
| Gregariousness | 26% | quiet, reclusive | engaging, socially bold |
| Sociability | 46% | withdrawn, hidden | warm, open, inviting |
| Assertiveness | 66% | timid, gunshy | controlling, aggressive |
| Poise | 66% | uneasy around others | socially comfortable |
| Leadership | 54% | stays in background | prefers to lead |
| Provocativeness | 66% | modest, plays it safe | bold, uninhibited, cocky |
| Self-Disclosure | 38% | private, contained | very open and revealing |
| Talkativeness | 50% | quiet, stealthy, invisible | motor mouth, loud |
| Group Attachment | 42% | loves solitude | prefers to be with others |
| Understanding | 74% | insensitive, schizoid | respectful, sympathetic |
| Warmth | 86% | disinterested in others | supportive, helpful |
| Morality | 74% | break/ignore the rules | play by the rules |
| Pleasantness | 74% | aloof or disagreeable | gets along with others |
| Empathy | 78% | out of tune w/ others | in tune with others |
| Cooperation | 62% | competitive, warlike | agreeable, peaceful |
| Sympathy | 66% | socially inconsiderate | socially conscious |
| Tenderness | 30% | cold hearted, selfish | warm hearted, selfless |
| Nurturance | 54% | self pleasing, me first | people pleasing, me last |
| Conscientiousness | 70% | reckless, unscheduled | careful, planner |
| Efficiency | 54% | unreliable, lazy | finisher, follows through |
| Dutifulness | 66% | leisurely, derelict | strict, rule abiding |
| Purposefulness | 62% | inattentive, undisciplined | prepared, focused |
| Organization | 62% | relaxed, oblivious | detail oriented, anal |
| Cautiousness | 78% | impulsive, spendthrift | restrained, cautious |
| Rationality | 54% | irrational, random | direct, logical |
| Perfectionism | 66% | careless, error prone | detail obsessed |
| Planning | 62% | disorganized, random | scheduled, clean |
| Stability | 66% | easily frustrated | calm, cool, unphased |
| Happiness | 58% | unhappy, dissatisfied | self content, positive |
| Calmness | 66% | touchy, volatile | even tempered, tolerant |
| Moderation | 54% | needs instant gratification | easily delays gratification |
| Toughness | 70% | hypersensitive, moody | thick skinned |
| Impulse Control | 62% | lacks self control | maintains composure |
| Imperturbability | 18% | highly emotional | emotionally contained |
| Cool-headedness | 38% | demanding, controlling | accommodating |
| Tranquility | 42% | emotionally volatile | emotionally neutral |
| Intellect | 66% | instinctive, non-analytical | intellectual, analytical |
| Ingenuity | 82% | lacks new ideas | innovative, novel |
| Reflection | 78% | unreflective, coarse | art and beauty lover |
| Competence | 90% | slow to understand/think | intellectual, brainy |
| Quickness | 82% | intellectually dependent | intellectually independent |
| Introspection | 82% | not self reflective | self searching |
| Creativity | 82% | dull headed | synthesizer, iconoclast |
| Imagination | 86% | practical, realistic | dreamer, unrealistic |
| Depth | 74% | lacks curiosity | mental explorer |
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Jungian Functions Test Results
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Saturday, December 12, 2015
December 12 2015 Saturday
The dream is changing. Well, not really changing; more of expanding. It's always gold and interesting to see how limited I am on my own.
I was too focused on the engineering side, I forgot the business and the human aspect. Well, I'll think and concretize it soon. But I need to do a proof of my abilities too.
Sunday, December 6, 2015
December 6 2015 Sunday
You know what, I've been thinking, if He had wanted to back then, it would have already been.
Oh well. I guess I'll have to wait. It's not like I have any other option. If not Him, who else can? I mean, haven't I tried all others? I did what I can and I still fall short. I've given up. It doesn't mean that I won't do anything though. I'll just do what I can while waiting.
A lot has happened but they're nothing really exciting.