August 26, 2016 Friday

Today my heart sank.

I spearheaded the dessicant changeout of one of our new dryers because of the recent high pressure drop issue. It is a long weekend (vacation until monday) and I was really looking forward to it. I was travelling home, sitting quietly in the bus when I received three texts from our outgoing OE that one of the critical units is on shutdown because of my dryer. Turns out it wasn't because of the dryer. At least based on the trend.

A lot of things went through my mind. The Lord is good. The Lord is sovereign.

At least I have decided that I will not stay, because I do not want to be on call. It would be difficult for my future family.

Anyway I'm gonna sleep tight now. :) Good night!

August 17, 2016 Wednesday

Today I did a lot of things at work.

I forewent my weight training, compiling for the dream, and stock market study in favor of finishing the BPSec questions. I have no reference / guide as to the kind of questions I will give so I just put what's on my mind. Although I think the things that I remembered are fairly simple stuff.

It's hard to make interesting questions. It will be even harder to automate this. In any case, I will not give up on the dream.

I did not forego Duolingo haha.

I want to talk to people too.

August 15, 2016 Monday

Today I tried to minimize social media. I think I still spent around 1 hour with it. Here is my routine on Monday and Wednesdays:

Duolingo - 5 minutes per course, 3 spanish 3 german 3 french 1 hebrew - total 50 minutes
Karate practice - (Chiishi + belt practice) - 1 hour

I reduced chiishi weight to 7.5 lbs, since I'm doing 25 lbs for whole body weight training. (I reduced from half weight to one-fourth weight, in favor of increasing repetitions from 8 to 12).

I also watched Encantadia which took a bit of my time.

I only have 4 hours a day to do things. Including eating and bathing that's around 3 hours. I can do Bible reading and a few Duolingo lessons in the morning and lunch.

Which leaves me with around 1 hour left. I am reading on stock markets book and writing on this blog; that makes it 30 minutes. I should minimize my time for chat, since if I start chatting I cannot do anything anymore.

In any case, I have discovered Deped Tambayan from my elementary teacher.

http://depedtambayanph.blogspot.com/

Looks like a good start. I have not done BP Sec questions too. I will do that first now, before I proceed with the dream.

August 14, 2016 Sunday

Today is more or less a typical Sunday. Go to church, have lunch, go back to Bataan, wash clothes, work out, etc.

Today more or less typical, except that today I planned The Dream. Actually, I woke up 5:00 earlier since I didn't want to sin any longer and started planning the dream.

Here is the vision:
1. to improve education in the Philippines, and
2. spread the Gospel through this

Due to the second bullet, it would be difficult for me to find secular partners.

That's it. The plan is to do this by:

1. Compiling resources and making them available online for free
2. Making educational tools such as
1. Question Generator / Worksheet generator
2. Flash cards 
3. Audio (for language subjects)
3. Moving in the grassroots by establishing tutorship
4. Moving in the grassroots by teaching parents to teach their children
5. Developing free distance learning courses

For now the immediate goal by the end of this year is to have a working resource compilation of K-12 students on Math and Science. Without this, I cannot proceed.

Things I need to think about:

1. The materials offered should be standardized. Do I standardize them? Do I make new ones?

I  have contacted my teachers in Congress. I will contact my teachers in Pisay too.

I will make a more concrete work item list tomorrow.

August 13, 2016 Saturday

Today I'm happy!

It's been a long while since I last had a chill Saturday. The meeting with B- did not push through.

I had driving lessons in the morning. I can drive well without pressure but I panic when there are a lot of cars around me. We went from SM through Commonwealth to Ever and turned right to Mapayapa was it? not really sure. Anyway from there we went through a lot of places and came back to A1 training center.

I went to Smart Center to have my SIM's mobile data fixed. They couldn't do it.

I played LoL all afternoon.

We had sinigang na boneless bangus for dinner. It's my favorite!! (I love sinigang and I love seafood)

I don't know what she's thinking.

I am going to start the dream!! I will need a framework first.

Romance

Not to add to the millions of voices and advices and gurus, but to keep what you have learned.

This is your ideal progression: friends -> courtship -> girlfriend -> engagement -> marriage. Of course it doesn’t have to be that way, but friendship is very important since it provides 1) the necessary time for discernment of her character and 2) it is the foundation of the dynamics of the relationship.

When you have discerned with prayer and fasting and meditation in the word, court the girl. Again it doesn’t have to be that way (you can jump to 3! haha), but courtship provides the girl the necessary time for discernment of your character and intentions. During this trial I hope you do not back out. That is your personal policy, isn’t it?

Truth be told, it is only up to there that you have mulled about. “We’ll cross the bridge when we get there.” Although of course I know you imagine yourself sharing activities and working complementarily and side by side with a partner.

In any case, you have set your ideals on marriage:

1. She is a woman – just to be sure... though I have already said my piece on homosexuality
2. She is a ministry partner – In Genesis 2, right after God gave Adam the task to take care of Eden and commanded him to keep His words, He said “it is not good for man to be alone,” and eventually gave her Eve. I think that is no coincidence. This is also highlighted in 1 Cor 7, where the apostle Paul says “the time is short. From now on those who have wives should live as if they do not...” After all, marriage isn’t about making me happy; it’s about making me happy in the LORD and glorify Him.
3. She is a partner – she not necessarily be a housewife. Others use the word ‘helpmeet.’ And if she is a partner, then she must be able and she must be willing (see #4).
4. She is submissive – this may be controversial but I mean this not just sexually (1 Cor 7 again) but in everything (Eph 5, Col 3). These were written to the saints (meaning, to Christian families), and our family should definitely qualify as one. Submission isn’t a bad thing as feminists suppose; remember, the Son of Man came not to be served, but to serve. The Kingdom is not of this world. 
5. She is a Christian – this almost automatically follows from #2 but this is specific in 1 Cor 7:39. And besides “mahirap mabuhay nang hindi mo nash-share ang pinakamasarap na parte ng buhay mo”

 Now ideally, we have the following qualities from the oh-so-famous Proverbs 31:

1. Trustworthy
2. Brings no harm
3. Works and Labours
4. Diligent, not idle
5. Manages assets and properties
6. Benevolent to the poor
7. “Clothed with strength and dignity”
8. “Speaks with wisdom and faithful instruction”
9. Fears the LORD 

And we have the following from other proverbs

1. Not adulterous (uhh c’mon) (Pr 2,5,6,7,23)
2. Not unruly (Pr 9:13)
3. Kindhearted (Pr 11:16)
4. Shows discretion (Pr 11:22)
5. Wise (Pr 14:1)
6. Prudent (Pr 19:14)
7. Not contemptible (Pr 30:23)
8. Not quarrelsome (Pr 19:13, 21:9, 21:19, 27:15)

And lastly, I must find her attractive (although to be honest I find a lot of people attractive). Perhaps another controversy on the idea of beauty, but there’s Song of Solomon showing the love of a husband to a wife. It’s the inside that counts most, yes, because “charm is fleeting and beauty is deceptive” and “like a gold ring in a pig’s snout is a beautiful woman who shows no discretion” but God created the body too, and we are also to take care of it. Which means it doesn’t have to conform to human standards of beauty (but I think you’ve already gone beyond that). But I must find her attractive. God called Ezekiel’s wife “the delight of your eyes,” and there is Pr 5:18, which is rather impossible to do if I do not at least find her attractive.

That said, who fits the above qualities??

Nope. Not gonna go there xD

(I’ve talked too much about this on Random Journals already haha)

Letters to Myself 12

August 10, 2016 Wednesday

Today we had firefighting training!!

I wanted to be second in line because I thought I was strong enough to carry the hose. But apparently I wasn't. I am reminded of my own weaknesses.

Anyhow, when NVB took the third man it became SO much easier. I wonder if it's just that noisy tomboy not pushing hard enough.

I really don't like that girl. She's so full of herself. Full of comments too. And then there were these two supposedly from safety that keep on giving me 'tips' not looking that I'M ACTUALLY DOING THEM. And their tips aren't really helpful. The hold that they teach us was so much less efficient than the first one that I learned.

And there was this Nat Geo film shooting thing that took up our time. It's fine though, since I've experienced firefighting already.

There was this girl that looks so much like M-. I remembered again that I really like M- if not for the fact that she's not... that.

P- keeps on talking to me and I don't want that because bro code. But I can't push her away either given her circumstances. In any case I'll try L-'s suggestion.

S- never replies. What happened to friendship tho

I like my work. There are no deadlines.

I have good friends. I must accept that along with the fact that my activities are solo activities. I know deep inside that I just want to be the center of a group of friends. But that's not how it works. And that is full of pride.


I'm starting to learn Hebrew from Duolingo. I'm going to drop learning Gaeilge.

I like E-. She's so cute! And very efficient. Idk I like her a bit. I need to consolidate my belief in love and romance.

I am going to re-establish this! And also my daily reading