Today the prologue ends. It's the last day of the one-and-a-half-month OJT at Petron Bataan Refinery in Limay, Bataan. It's been filled with weird feelings, new experiences, and a sneak peak to my life in the next 5 years.
Weird feeling 1: I like working here in the sense that I can use what I learn. But so many people discourage me because of the low pay. I shouldn't be bothered. Me, of all people, worrying about low pay? Wasn't I the one whose great drean us a simple life? Weird feeling #2: I love her but my heart is cold. Is this God's work? I don't understand. My heart beats for a while then stops suddenly. I'm doubting the rhema I received: to wait until graduation. Frankly, I'm scared. Will I find a partner? Chances are low after graduation. Especially here in Limay, where I don't know anyone.
New experiences: quite too many to mention. Safety, process integration, major equipments, firefighting, etc.
One thing that really bothers me is the lack of time for myself, or rather, for God. If I really have to socialize from day until night like this for the next 5 years, I'd have no doubt that I will backslide. In fact, I'm losing focus even now. With all these unstoppable influences hampering my mind nonstop, I am withering and losing proper nutrition.
This is the work place. This is the real world. Yes, it is my responsibility to abide in Christ, to work for the Sabbath rest in Christ, to meditate on the Word of my Lord day and night.
I will set a time and rhythm. I will discipline the body. Every morning at 5:00 I will read the Word and keep it in my heart for the rest of the day. This is not to set a legalistic attitude but a fervent desire to seek Him.
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