What place does the mundane have in a Christian's life? Should we do trivial things like read manga or play games or watch TV and movies and read books and novels? Should we concern ourselves with the trivialities of the daily life, that which the middle class values so much? Should we go on parties and hang out and enjoy ourselves, eat out and try out every restaurant, fill our lives with new tastes and experiences and all kinds of fun and enjoyment?
They aren't harmful anyway. It's not like you're sinning by doing those, right?
I'll be cutting short this train of thought in favor of a more pressing matter in my mind.
Today we got 66. That's really low. Nothing surprising though since it wasn't like we were very very prepared. We didn't study beforehand and no one is serious about things anymore.
Yes I'm disappointed but secretly I'm enjoying this. It's more than the curiosity to see people's reactions when that happens to me or I do something like that. It tastes a little bit cold and sweet. Revenge, karma, whatever. But I feel a little happy that they're seeing the consequences of what they're doing. I've been on standby for one and a half sems waiting for their attitude to change but I guess that's not going to happen.
I can't rant on Twitter seeing as they'd see it. I want to reiterate things though, perhaps clarify.
I'm not your safety net. It's not fair for you to prioritize your extracurriculars over the two major subjects. And I'm not going to catch you and clean up after this mess you insisted on. Even if it becomes my fall.
Yes I'm well aware you do the work but that's just how it's supposed to be, no? At least you're owning up a little. But the priorities though, that always gets on my nerves. Nothing wrong with org work, but sometimes it's not even org work. And even if it is, it shouodn't get in the way of acads.
And leave me out, that's just perfect. I always ask what to do and how can I help but the answer is always nothing. Fine. As for me, I'll help in any way I can.
If this sem were a LoL game, I'd have a noisy and pabida Katarina who turns out to be a feeder. I won't be surprised if sooner or later she cheats the results. But I'm hoping for that not to happen, because that would be the last straw and I'm really gonna pull out of the group, even if it means not being able to graduate.
Now the consequences to me. What ifs? What if I don't graduate summa cum laude? What if I don't graduate at all? I've never really been one to care about grades; it's just my parents who do. So the first one is something I can stand. It's actually a little good for me. It's annoying how people look at you as if you're something special. And lately people have been calling me more of summa cum laude than my actual name. I really hate it. I am not summa and summa is not me. And it gets really lonely too, because people will leave you alone all the time saying, "kaya na niya yan mag-isa," (he can do it on his own). Please, anyone can do things on their own. Which leaves me wondering about friends.
And for the more dire question: what if I don't graduate at all? I'd be delayed for 1 sem and I'd have to pay petron the contract. So we'd be in debt for around 300,000. But it will be fine, I guess. Maybe I can refund from oblation scholarship, and pay the last extra semester. Worst case, work my ass off to pay the debt. In any case, God will provide.
Perhaps the saddest thing is the shock to my parents, because I have given no indication whatsoever of what's happening.
Now I want to read the Bible so I'll be off now.
They aren't harmful anyway. It's not like you're sinning by doing those, right?
I'll be cutting short this train of thought in favor of a more pressing matter in my mind.
Today we got 66. That's really low. Nothing surprising though since it wasn't like we were very very prepared. We didn't study beforehand and no one is serious about things anymore.
Yes I'm disappointed but secretly I'm enjoying this. It's more than the curiosity to see people's reactions when that happens to me or I do something like that. It tastes a little bit cold and sweet. Revenge, karma, whatever. But I feel a little happy that they're seeing the consequences of what they're doing. I've been on standby for one and a half sems waiting for their attitude to change but I guess that's not going to happen.
I can't rant on Twitter seeing as they'd see it. I want to reiterate things though, perhaps clarify.
I'm not your safety net. It's not fair for you to prioritize your extracurriculars over the two major subjects. And I'm not going to catch you and clean up after this mess you insisted on. Even if it becomes my fall.
Yes I'm well aware you do the work but that's just how it's supposed to be, no? At least you're owning up a little. But the priorities though, that always gets on my nerves. Nothing wrong with org work, but sometimes it's not even org work. And even if it is, it shouodn't get in the way of acads.
And leave me out, that's just perfect. I always ask what to do and how can I help but the answer is always nothing. Fine. As for me, I'll help in any way I can.
If this sem were a LoL game, I'd have a noisy and pabida Katarina who turns out to be a feeder. I won't be surprised if sooner or later she cheats the results. But I'm hoping for that not to happen, because that would be the last straw and I'm really gonna pull out of the group, even if it means not being able to graduate.
Now the consequences to me. What ifs? What if I don't graduate summa cum laude? What if I don't graduate at all? I've never really been one to care about grades; it's just my parents who do. So the first one is something I can stand. It's actually a little good for me. It's annoying how people look at you as if you're something special. And lately people have been calling me more of summa cum laude than my actual name. I really hate it. I am not summa and summa is not me. And it gets really lonely too, because people will leave you alone all the time saying, "kaya na niya yan mag-isa," (he can do it on his own). Please, anyone can do things on their own. Which leaves me wondering about friends.
And for the more dire question: what if I don't graduate at all? I'd be delayed for 1 sem and I'd have to pay petron the contract. So we'd be in debt for around 300,000. But it will be fine, I guess. Maybe I can refund from oblation scholarship, and pay the last extra semester. Worst case, work my ass off to pay the debt. In any case, God will provide.
Perhaps the saddest thing is the shock to my parents, because I have given no indication whatsoever of what's happening.
Now I want to read the Bible so I'll be off now.
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