Today I didn't sleep well. I woke up in the middle of night, even though it wasn't so hot (it wasn't cold either). I was thinking of her.
Last night, I asked her academic stuff and we ended up talking. I really missed those times. I miss staring at the way she smiles and the way her eyes glitter when she speaks so passionately about anything! Bonsai or drawing or gundam or yellowcard or people or anything at all! I love the way her hair smells and the way she puts it behind her ear with a flick of her finger. I miss it all.
She also invited me to join her in social dance. Of course I wouldn't say no. I dreamed of dancing with her before too.
I wanted to confess. If it doesn't work out then all is well; I've resigned myself to this fate. But if it does then I'll pour all my energy into it.
I was still thinking of this when I woke up again this morning.
Should I? Or should I not?
It was a long struggle. The whole morning, I was thinking about it. Until continued reading Boy Meets Girl.
I really, really love her. But that love distracts me from the Lord. That's enough reason. It's a NO. For my utmost is for His highest, and He is my desire and happiness.
But I'll push through with the dance. But for now I'll also maintain the status quo.
So after that we played couple quiz with hanna-rj and france-luna! It was fun and amusing and interesting all at once! Someday I really want to be in a great relationship like that. But there's more to that for Christian couples. There's no greater joy than an intimate relationship with God. And marriage is a very good thing that makes us experience that.
All the while I was doing Plant Design work. I'm really productive! Although of course it could be better. But like I tweeted, I have promised to make time for people. It's not about making connections and about the value of social life over grades. I want to be able to serve people so I think spending time with them is the first step.
Actually I accompanied DonaTelle (+Kim and Gionel) in UP today. It's fun sitting around chilling and listening like that.
Oh and I also played Vayne-Thresh with my brother this morning. It was an excellent game. Vayne is fun when there are no lags. We carried the whole team together. The enemy team hardly had any assassins, and their only one, the Leb, was stopped in its tracks by a single Maw of Malmortius with the extra magic resist from Thresh's Locket of the Iron Solari. The rushing tanks like Shyvana and Garen were all kitable thanks to my brother's excellent Thresh coupled with Vayne's insane armor shredding. It's easily one of my favorite games.
Last night, I asked her academic stuff and we ended up talking. I really missed those times. I miss staring at the way she smiles and the way her eyes glitter when she speaks so passionately about anything! Bonsai or drawing or gundam or yellowcard or people or anything at all! I love the way her hair smells and the way she puts it behind her ear with a flick of her finger. I miss it all.
She also invited me to join her in social dance. Of course I wouldn't say no. I dreamed of dancing with her before too.
I wanted to confess. If it doesn't work out then all is well; I've resigned myself to this fate. But if it does then I'll pour all my energy into it.
I was still thinking of this when I woke up again this morning.
Should I? Or should I not?
It was a long struggle. The whole morning, I was thinking about it. Until continued reading Boy Meets Girl.
I really, really love her. But that love distracts me from the Lord. That's enough reason. It's a NO. For my utmost is for His highest, and He is my desire and happiness.
But I'll push through with the dance. But for now I'll also maintain the status quo.
So after that we played couple quiz with hanna-rj and france-luna! It was fun and amusing and interesting all at once! Someday I really want to be in a great relationship like that. But there's more to that for Christian couples. There's no greater joy than an intimate relationship with God. And marriage is a very good thing that makes us experience that.
All the while I was doing Plant Design work. I'm really productive! Although of course it could be better. But like I tweeted, I have promised to make time for people. It's not about making connections and about the value of social life over grades. I want to be able to serve people so I think spending time with them is the first step.
Actually I accompanied DonaTelle (+Kim and Gionel) in UP today. It's fun sitting around chilling and listening like that.
Oh and I also played Vayne-Thresh with my brother this morning. It was an excellent game. Vayne is fun when there are no lags. We carried the whole team together. The enemy team hardly had any assassins, and their only one, the Leb, was stopped in its tracks by a single Maw of Malmortius with the extra magic resist from Thresh's Locket of the Iron Solari. The rushing tanks like Shyvana and Garen were all kitable thanks to my brother's excellent Thresh coupled with Vayne's insane armor shredding. It's easily one of my favorite games.
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