May 7 2015 Thursday

I'm actually writing this on the morning of May 8. I skipped yesterday because I wasn't feeling well. Anyway let's begin there.

Yesterday I got a legitimate love letter. I didn't think it would be that beautiful. It's more than a manifestation of emotions and feelings; it is love crystallized. Every thoughtful stroke of that neat, consistent handwriting, every word chosen with care, every punctuation marked by a heartbeat is a piece of that raw yet refined solid crystal. It's so clear and pure that it seems to shine a warm yellow glow, and looking at it makes me feel happy too.

We're actually very similar, but... I won't write it here. That's for her to know and hers only.

After that I donated blood and I think I overworked myself walking under the sun yesterday that I fell asleep in the bus. I also fell asleep early, but that's partly because I couldn't think properly then.

Today when I woke up I still couldn't think properly. And thinking of that letter reminded me of what I wrote last year. Miracle, Love. I re-read it and realized that I still feel the same after 363 days.

So I don't know anymore. I'm back again to this torn feeling of feelings vs spirit. My mind stops working when it comes to her haha

Oh also the star is very weird. Like she wants to say something but instead says it vaguely so that I could say it instead of her. But that's normal for her but she keeps saying she's weird and I'm weird which we know are both true which makes it weird even though it's normal.