October 16, 2015 Friday

For some inexplicable reason, I woke up at around 12:30 AM in a flash of inspiration. You see, there's this Writing Contest http://lookingforjuan.blogspot.com/2015/08/rules-and-conditions-1.html, which my brother told me about a few months ago, and it is only today that I managed to piece together an idea that has been floating in my head for years. But then I noticed that what I wrote isn't exactly a Children's Story, but I'll submit it nonetheless.

It took me around 2 hours to write and type, and about an hour this morning to recheck and polish. Of course, I'll post it here too.

So today I accompanied mama in SM. Nothing much to note, it's just the usual shopping. Although I want to say that there is a very pretty saleslady in Mint. Granted, she's not the best saleslady, and neither is she baby-faced, but her face is shaped like chiseled marble to obsessive perfection. That's all I think.

Currently, I'm getting bored with life. How should I say it? Yes I like what's happening, that I can study stuff I want, that I can talk to a few people to ease my loneliness, and I can play to my heart's content. But I never get content.

In the end it boils down to that, no? To the fact that I all these things can't make me that happy, that the same confidence that I have of my future should be the same dependence I should have at the present. Okay, maybe it doesn't make sense if I put it that way. The same faith in God regarding my future should be the same faith I have in Him regarding my joy.

To be exact, my confidence in my future is the promise of the Sovereign God, "all things work together for the good of those who love Him, who are called according to His purpose." The latter is harder to understand, but it's close to being satisfied in whatever He gives plus delighting in obeying His commandments.

But then I never learn.

About the meditation (very relevant haha), I'm currently reading proverbs! The first part consists mostly of keeping and chasing wisdom to avoid seduction. It's very specific against seduction. So the simpleminded basically asks for trouble, walking at midnight toward the house of the woman. Which is also exactly what I've been doing (metaphorically).

So I will try again. And again. And again.

I'd like to have a verse by verse analysis or just comparison of the parallelisms especially across chapters, but I'm on my phone right now and it's hard to do that.

I'm going to ChEckboard tomorrow and hopefully I get inspired to do some real studying. Because honestly, it's discouraging to study for a trivial exam (if it really is trivial and luck).