Today I studied in best place and beyond! (Not the real name) It's hard being the fifth wheel. They'd talk to each other and it feels so private and it's a little awkward to ask what's happening.
Also it's a lot less chaotic than expected. Everyone is very serious while studying.
And H- made me watch an episode of Big Bang. It's fairly funny, I must admit. But it's not something I'd like to follow.
So I also studied a lot. I'm done with Day 1 but I don't want to move on to other days. Especially Day 2.
So I read in an askreddit thread about taking the chance etc. I don't really know, I feel I always want to try being in a relationship but I don't want to play around either. Although I do feel like playing around a little. But that's my manipulative tendencies and I am afraid of it. But then these thoughts are probably just brought about by being fifth wheel for a little while.
I also wonder when I'll experience euphoria again. I kinda miss it. I don't even know what makes me happy now.
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