This morning I dreamt that I'm already taking the board exam. And I felt exhausted but confident after the first two days, but then mama didn't wake me up for the third day. And then I realized it was a dream. But I didn't wake up or take control (I could've); I just let it fade from my consciousness and return to sleep. That's all I can remember.
I slept again for maybe around 30 minutes. And I read nanatsu no taizai.
I also opened fb for a short while, maybe an hour or two and responded to the messages and glanced at the notifs.
I didn't go to morayta because I felt.. sad? I don't know(?) It's a weird feeling. Maybe the germans have a word for this. Anyhow T- feels cold and it's a waste seeing as she's an interesting one. I am not sure if it is connected to that, but logically speaking there is no reason for it to be like that. Probably it is more connected to the feeling of being alone.
Hmm I should really cut down on my 'hobbies.' I wonder, are they really worth it? What is it worth, anyway? Surely it's based on what you live for. And if I live for God should I not live my all for Him?
And again this issue is brought up. But I never really think about it until I stop. Of course it does not mean that this is an invalid concern. In the past I have convinced myself that there is no place for that. It is a matter of resolve.
But I'm too sleepy to think about it. Ah well.
Before I forget: I notice that some titles have a comma, and some do not. Is there a pattern I input subconsciously? I wonder. Anyway, I hypothesize that if it is, then it is only connected to the leading train of thought. Maybe I'll check it out when I remember and when I have time.
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